Fuk that Celaxa kiddo , hopefully you aren't taking it anymore , it's the worst anti depressant ive ever taken .
Ive shared much info here at RIU about my multi decade adventure with opiates & related narcotics but i dont mind sharing more, about 25 or 30 yrs ago i was in a work related explosion where the blast concussion threw me 50 ft , the concussive force & impact broke my back , tore up most my discs & crushed some vertebrae as well , i was also left with 3rd degree burns on 12 % of my body as well as 2 small areas of 4th degree burn , 4th degree is imediate amputation so i lost a finger & some leg meat & had massive areas of 2nd degree burns & 2nd degree hurts the worst of all burns , i broke some bones too as well as some internal shit so ive been in pain ever since , countless surgeries & nothing fixes the nerve damage so im pretty well fuked .
Everything ive taken or still take is neuro surgeon prescribed thru pain management , ive been on Dilaudid , Morphine , Fentynal , Oxycontin , Oxycodone , Staydol NS & IV ( Heaviest sht ive ever taken )Darvon compound , Percodan , Vicoden , Soma , Methadone , Hydromorphone , Tussinex , Nucynta , Valium , Zanax , Neurontin , Lyrica & thats off the top of my head & i know im missing a bunch more but you get the idea , ill start off with the worse side effects .
Stadol NS ( Butoproponal Tartanate ) Now this is some wild shit here , side effects are severe rage syndrome & equally severe depression , you'll rip somebody's head off on stadol or eat a bullet , several times i ended up in the bath tub or out back with my 45 cal in my mouth from the depression , the rage you feel is unexplainable & i served up several beatings while snorting that shit , i got into a road rage incident on I-75 in Clarkston Mich where i busted a guy's window , drug him out the car & stomped his face with my work boot within 100 yards of a massive billboard pic of Jesus titled " Are you on the right road " , i was so pissed i bent the steering wheel in my truck while driving away from the scene ,another time i was in Detroit eating lunch at a burger stand when i saw 2 crackheads running away from my truck with some expensive tools , i got in my truck & ran one of them down to an abandoned flop house with about 15 pcs of shit out front , i grabbed a masons hammer from my truck & caught that fuker on the 3rd floor trying to hide behind a pile of drywall on the floor , i hit him in the shoulder with the hammers blunt end then once more directly in his breast plate , picked up the transit he had of mine & left his ass there to die , hopefully he didnt & thats bothered me for 20 yrs , you'll kill people on stadol NS ,
Neurontin is a doozey for depression too , after about a month on it extremely vivid nightmares & suicidal thoughts all the time .
Lyrica is the same type nerve agent as Neurontin but i dont get nightmares or suicidal thoughts , what i do get is loss of equalibrim where im off balance & when i use the 200mg one's it fuk's up my balance so bad in my inner ear i get sea sick & the worlds spinning , i have to lay flat on the floor & hold on for dear life for about an hour .
Dilaudid makes me feel tweaked , cant sit still & cant keep a thought straight with 100 things going on in my head at once .
Fentynal patches fuk up my sleep no matter the mg .
Thats about the worse immeadite side effects but with all opiates the side effects from long term use are a nightmare & can lead to death not related to od'ing , you get enlarged prostate which causes you to piss every 15 minutes 24 hrs a day , enlarged prostate will fuk your sleep up so bad you begin to contemplate suicide , it takes on a life of like your being tortured from sleep depravation , imagine going to sleep & having somebody wake you up every half hour all night & each time making you do 20 sit up's then saying go back to sleep , knowing their gonna wake you up again all night long , urinating with an enlarged prostate isnt easy & it requires using stomache muscles to force the urine out , a simple piss can take 5 to 10 minutes of strenous stomache muscle use , along with urination problems enlarged prostate can lead to total irrectile dysfunction where nothing on earth will get you hard , i spent nearly a year like that & am only now getting back to half ass normal errection thanks to low dose daily Cialis therapy & urination is only slightly better with me waking up once an hour to urinate .
Again with long term opiate use comes hardening of the bowels where you get constipated continuously , you feel ungodly bloated & the intense pressure being put on the intestine leaves you on the toilet in agony for hours , the feces back up can put pressure on the heart , think Elvis Presley & how he died grunting on the toilet , thankfully thru change of diet & a 2 yr 90% reduction in my Oxycontin use & the total stopping of my use of morphine , oxycodone & nucynta for break thru pain has my bowels started functioning nearly normal .
I'd give anything to be opiate free but that isnt a realistic expectation unless i opt to undergo surgery to sever my spinal nerve bundle leaving me cripple from the waist down , ive met 2 men who couldnt live with the pain anymore & flew to India to have the surgery , here in the states doctors cant kill living body parts other than to save a life so many go to india for the procedure .
That ought to be enough side effects to make anybody think twice before taking PK's to get high .
