need imput .....wreck anouther humans life or let it go

Should i spill the beans on a asshole brother

  • good max

    Votes: 9 64.3%
  • evil max

    Votes: 5 35.7%

  • Total voters
    14

justugh

Well-Known Member
I noticed that in your poll there is no option for sane max...
there is no sane max ...........nature took that option away from me at 13

there is manic max
there is depressed max
there is sudical max
and final numb max .....numb max is where i live most of my life (apathetic....i just do not care enough to want to care)
oh pill zombie max .....when i take the pills they say controls bi polar (they lie there is nothing that does it..... it is all supressive anti seizure/epileptic drugs.....taken those pills is like living 3 steps behide everyone the amount of energy it takes to complete a full thought )


i will end up losing to it .....we all do ......robin williams (man had it all he could of just sat on a island and gotten shitty drunk for rest of life ......bi polar always wins) it is just matter of how long u can last and i have out lasted everyone predictions including my own (personally i do not care about life i am just waiting for some natural cause to kill me .....until then i need something to keep me from getting bored and building things i should not) hence why i come here looking for new things to think about grown weed
 

mr sunshine

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there is no sane max ...........nature took that option away from me at 13

there is manic max
there is depressed max
there is sudical max
and final numb max .....numb max is where i live most of my life (apathetic....i just do not care enough to want to care)
oh pill zombie max .....when i take the pills they say controls bi polar (they lie there is nothing that does it..... it is all supressive anti seizure/epileptic drugs.....taken those pills is like living 3 steps behide everyone the amount of energy it takes to complete a full thought )


i will end up losing to it .....we all do ......robin williams (man had it all he could of just sat on a island and gotten shitty drunk for rest of life ......bi polar always wins) it is just matter of how long u can last and i have out lasted everyone predictions including my own (personally i do not care about life i am just waiting for some natural cause to kill me .....until then i need something to keep me from getting bored and building things i should not) hence why i come here looking for new things to think about grown weed
How often do you masterbate? That seems to take up alot of my time, it might work for you.
 

justugh

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How often do you masterbate? That seems to take up alot of my time, it might work for you.
bi polar .......means hyper sexual
my right hand could make a chicken head pop off

hookers are no fun i am a pussy eater.....and i am never done in a hour
dating was out of the pic for 5 years with illegal grow and the ladies i have met out here i would not want to date any of them
the women that can make me cry uncle in bed the day after i get out the hospital i ask her to marry me
 

dagwood45431

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personally i do not care about life i am just waiting for some natural cause to kill me
I'm guessing that's an epidemic worldwide. I can certainly relate at times. You're not looking for advice, but learning something new (literally anything) usually snaps me out of it. If you're in the middle of learning something, you're no longer just waiting around.

'The best thing for being sad,' replied Merlin, beginning to puff and blow, 'is to learn something. That's the only thing that never fails. You may grow old and trembling in your anatomies, you may lie awake at night listening to the disorder of your veins, you may miss your only love, you may see the world about you devastated by evil lunatics, or know your honour trampled in the sewers of baser minds. There is only one thing for it then — to learn. Learn why the world wags and what wags it. That is the only thing which the mind can never exhaust, never alienate, never be tortured by, never fear or distrust, and never dream of regretting. Learning is the only thing for you.'
-- T.H. White, The Once and Future King
 

reddan1981

Well-Known Member
there is no sane max ...........nature took that option away from me at 13

there is manic max
there is depressed max
there is sudical max
and final numb max .....numb max is where i live most of my life (apathetic....i just do not care enough to want to care)
oh pill zombie max .....when i take the pills they say controls bi polar (they lie there is nothing that does it..... it is all supressive anti seizure/epileptic drugs.....taken those pills is like living 3 steps behide everyone the amount of energy it takes to complete a full thought )


i will end up losing to it .....we all do ......robin williams (man had it all he could of just sat on a island and gotten shitty drunk for rest of life ......bi polar always wins) it is just matter of how long u can last and i have out lasted everyone predictions including my own (personally i do not care about life i am just waiting for some natural cause to kill me .....until then i need something to keep me from getting bored and building things i should not) hence why i come here looking for new things to think about grown weed
Not implying any thing with this post, but i want to share, though i seem to always divulge the morbid details of my life here.
Suicide is rife in my family, i have struggled with my own periods of helplessness and frustration which very easily could have produced a similar fate.
I have heard every self help expression to avoid these tendencies and could negate them all, with a 'so what?'
Two weeks ago an old friend of mine hanged himself. That would make 10 people directly in my circle through out my life that have hung themself.
Each one of them could not see past their own situation.

When i digress, i remember these people. I remember the lasting trauma, the shock and frustration of the waste of a life.

These people could have affected some positive change in this world. They could have used their lives for a purpose, what ever that purpose might have been.

Frustration over things you cant change, whether it be an episode from the past that you wish were different, or a current issue, is an absolute waste of time and emotion.

When you reach that brick wall that you cant seem to get through or over, remember, you can take a moment to step backwards.
From that step backwards you can sidestep to another path and go around or avoid that path completely.

I am on my own mission, many will not understand it. Im only on it because i chose to come down this road, I have created a greater purpose for my existence, if i were to sacrifice my life for this purpose now, I will do so happy, knowing that the pain it would cause those that love me, would be justified for the greater good of everybody.

You better believe it would have to be a very particular set of circumstances that would cause this scenario.
 

justugh

Well-Known Member
I'm guessing that's an epidemic worldwide. I can certainly relate at times. You're not looking for advice, but learning something new (literally anything) usually snaps me out of it. If you're in the middle of learning something, you're no longer just waiting around.



-- T.H. White, The Once and Future King
that is what have have used for years .......pick a subject and learn everything i can ......but the current trouble is i am out of safe subjects to learn on ......weed is the last thing after that is a lab set up to make lsd( make the lsd 25 and trip for life )

moonshine only took me 2 years to learn and from what everyone tells me my shine is the shit ...best stuff they tasted even at 140 proof ( i mean the shit is so simple it all about copper to pull sulfates out of it to smooth it out ) ....all those applepie moonshine whiskey rum vodka brandy

weed has been 5 years i can grow auto plants that put off LBs of weed in 110 days ........photos and making my own genetics are the last thing i have to learn ......i know indoor design i know outdoor design hell i know how to make tincture oil wax vape pen carts candies cookies butter rso

i am running out of stuff that i enjoy and is ok for me to know about
 
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