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priest of knowledge

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I am too wise... too wise for my own good as a young adult, at least. I study everything: every bit of news, every knowledge of textbook, every stranger's story, and every oddity to figure out. I have not yet reached the graduate level of the things I read except in Physics, but I believe that is because I have lost my drive and have slowed to nearly a halt. I am still young and find my peers are so much younger. I have solved their problems by very often taking time and resources from myself to do so, yet all they do is ignore me in return. I am so damned gifted and so selfless, but not one person will think to how I came to be this way. Everyone just wants whatever helps them remain the same and prepares for death from the moment they reach high school, and I am losing my faith because of it. I am losing my faith in humanity. It makes it harder to be the way I am without a single drop of success in someone I teach. I find it is harder to wake up with under 6 hours of sleep like I used to so I have more time in the day, it is so much more strenuous to stick to the tasks I set ahead of myself because I wonder what's the point, and I find myself constantly thinking of those that I failed to instill change within around me-- plotting how I can help despite my commitment to no longer waste time with them. I keep thinking more and more that I am the only one, but I want the internet to prove me wrong. I want to find groups of people who have a drive for existence; who have a purpose higher than one's self. There are three qualities I never truly find in the same person other than myself, and trust me: I have nearly read through 1000 people on my travels. They are Logic, Open-Mindedness, and Drive. Now this is the important part and I urge this with fervor: PLEASE DO NOT REPLY UNLESS YOU BELIEVE YOU ARE LESS THAN OR EQUAL TO ME. Pride is a fool's trait and too many try to impart their speakeasy knowledge in lieu of the idea that the one to whom they speak may be more intelligent, and I always see people of no purpose trying to impress themselves as a mentor of how to live in hypocrisy. This means that you should only reply if you either believe you are the same as I: you try to constantly read and push yourself for the sake of learning your existence, you find everyone around you missing out on something, or you have a drive to live with logic and open-mindedness guiding it, or if you believe you are less than me in some way that removes your pride. I know I think I am less than everyone. Like, I used to be happy that I was smart, but it's bullshit how much easier life is to be comfortable. The main doctrine of how I teach myself is to never have or allow comfort. The term comfortable is nothing but the definition of being in a state you wish not to change and I always want to keep changing... but damn is it harder without any outside influence of hope or attaboy's
 
Roseman

Roseman

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[SIZE=+2]G[/SIZE][SIZE=+1]o placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.[/SIZE]
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[SIZE=+2]I[/SIZE][SIZE=+1]f you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.[/SIZE]
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[SIZE=+2]E[/SIZE][SIZE=+1]xercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let not this blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.[/SIZE]
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[SIZE=+2]N[/SIZE][SIZE=+1]urture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.[/SIZE]
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[SIZE=+2]T[/SIZE][SIZE=+1]herefore, be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams; it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful.[/SIZE]
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[SIZE=+2]S[/SIZE][SIZE=+1]trive to be happy.[/SIZE]


--- Max Ehrmann, 1927​
 
Florida Girl

Florida Girl

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priest of knowledge said:
I am so damned gifted and so selfless, but not one person will think to how I came to be this way. Everyone just wants whatever helps them remain the same and prepares for death from the moment they reach high school, and I am losing my faith because of it.
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Well you certainly are full of yourself aren't you? You should PM the guy who put up this thread...you sound like 2 peas out of the same insane pod https://www.rollitup.org/spirituality-sexuality-philosophy/69159-intelligence-my-wellness.html
 
Baz

Baz

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How can someone who has only posted once have rep and be on a distiguished road?
 
panhead

panhead

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Boy,you'd think that somebody so damm gifted would understand the importance of a paragraph.

Quit hanging around idiots & morons & all will be well.
 
ZenMaster

ZenMaster

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The vanity of your post is only outweighed by your naivetè.
As you acquire more knowledge amongst various subjects, what will come only is the gradual awareness of your vast ignorance. Socrates blatantly stated himself, "I know that I am intelligent, because I know that I know nothing." When you are wise enough to realize your ignorance will come humility. You have tremendous vanity in your assumed wisdom, hypocritically contradicting your earlier denouncement of ego-driven pride.

You are contained within your fabricated paradox. You seek resolution to your unhappiness yet forbid yourself to have comfort. Comfort, who you deem is the mundane goal of society, is not dramatic enough for your life. This reflects yet another facet of your ignorance. You have not learned to appreciate what you have.

You are indeed young and arrogant, which time with smother both out. With humility shall come enlightenment, and you will come to find peace with yourself.
 
Bookworm

Bookworm

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while I share some habits with you (in trying to learn everything about everything)
PLEASE DO NOT REPLY UNLESS YOU BELIEVE YOU ARE LESS THAN OR EQUAL TO ME. Pride is a fool's trait and too many try to impart their speakeasy knowledge in lieu of the idea that the one to whom they speak may be more intelligent, and I always see people of no purpose trying to impress themselves as a mentor of how to live in hypocrisy.
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full of yourself much?
 
gogrow

gogrow

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even though your head seems to be pretty far up your large intestine, i thought we could get along.... then i got to the "drive" part:-?.... i have no drive; just a lazy stoner, who is content with being comfortable:dunce:
 
Seamaiden

Seamaiden

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panhead said:
Boy,you'd think that somebody so damm gifted would understand the importance of a paragraph.

Quit hanging around idiots & morons & all will be well.
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Took the thought right out of my head. :lol:

Toss in a little hubris and hegemony and we have the beginnings of a nice alliteration.
 
gogrow

gogrow

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Seamaiden said:
Took the thought right out of my head. :lol:

Toss in a little hubris and hegemony and we have the beginnings of a nice alliteration.
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:finger: those two words:lol:.... they have now become my term for anything that dumbfounds me... or just pisses me off:mrgreen:...

come on... who the fuck says "hubris" and "hegemony"??:confused:

:hug:..you know i love you:mrgreen:... make dave some beignets already:shock:
 
mahlye

mahlye

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your looking for intellectuals of your standards in a forum inhabited by drug users? are you sure you're as knowledgeable as you claim to be?
 
loke

loke

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Oh how quaint, another exponentially bright and talented primate. *sigh* How insecure one must be to filter their intellect through the minds of the random and confused.
 
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