I can relate to that.
For me, at work/school I always approached in an attack mode, fearing failure, I guess.
I never could take it easy, which led me to drugs to relax/escape/calm down, which with my nature I also attacked alcohol/drugs with gusto.
Anyway, I figured life is too short for that style of living & I was starting to burn out, so I dropped out.
No more chemicals, all natural & I have pretty much put the cork in the bottle.
I was fortunate enough to be able to set up a couple of rooms, quit my job & retreated from what most would say is a normal existence.
Nah, no more working/slaving for some fat Republican 9-5/5 days a week/50 fucking weeks a year.
I might not be rich monetarily, but that's ok.
I don't need much & I am content.
Time for a tune, me thinks & I'm in the mood for this one