I thought I already posted this but I've been in a haze. My mom passed away at 3:37am today. It's been a weird, shitty surreal kind of day. It was a crazy painful thing to watch her go. But I guess it's better than not being with her at all! For her last hour her breathing got so shallow that she would go like 15 seconds between breaths. Her pulse had been really weak for a long time and since she was on hospice they didn't have her on any equipment. At any rate, it was like every breath was possibly her last and since she was exhaling so far apart, well you get the idea. Fucking brutal to watch and wait as you could imagine.
Ill miss her dearly and it still hasnt truly set in yet.
i love you mom!