Its prob because you stopped. then started again smoking better / and the same amount or more bud. cut down a bit and take baby steps bro. but if you really want to quit then all the power to you.
Pussy. but no. you are just over thinking. i know people who smoke out of homemades all the time. they are fine. you just need to calm down. and not smoke so much lol. or smoke more. which ever u want.