Being a kid :'(

high|hgih

high|hgih

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What happens? When I recall upon childhood its almost as if I was tripping the whole time. Everything was such a wonder, an adventure. I could play outside with frogs forever and actually have fun. Going to bed at night was scary, being next to a warm fire was like a strange infared environment.. Movies were interesting as could be. Dont even get me started about rated R movies.. What happens? Even chemically, do kids produce more dopamine or something?

the magics just gone. Its a very common topic, childhood. But it was just so majestic. Was it society that ruined us? Animals never get bored do they?

Just so strange.. Whats your guys thoughts?
 
cannabineer

cannabineer

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Have you read PiHKAL by Shulgin? He described in glowing terms his feelings about the link between psychedelics and the child mind.

I do know that when i was 1 and 2 and 3, I tripped absolute spiky balls at night. I miss that. cn
 
high|hgih

high|hgih

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  • Have you read PiHKAL by Shulgin? He described in glowing terms his feelings about the link between psychedelics and the child mind.

    I do know that when i was 1 and 2 and 3, I tripped absolute spiky balls at night. I miss that. cn​


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I have not. I know that my dad has a copy of that, and the other one with the generally same looking title.. I always wanted to read those ones, I don't know why I haven't. Im going over there tomorrow, I'll grab them! Thanks! I know what your saying about night time though.. I would get so scared Id be unable too sleep, hear noises, see a pair of glowing eyes :o But I noticed a couple times over the past 10 years thats happened to me not on any drugs, just scared shitless in my bed for some reason.. I felt like that got my dopamine pumping, I was pretty much tripping it felt like a little, it just amazed me.


  • Society indeed.. Take the time to take it all in again.... I'm reborn! But it may take something new to make you feel like a kid again.​



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Sadly.. :( I always noticed LSD makes you feel like a child again
 
bigslama912

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I miss the days of childhood, life was so care free and enjoyable. Now its... How many hours do I need to work in order to pay my bills. LAME
 
kentuckyboy

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I have the most vivid dreams sometimes, and I will wake and go back to sleep and start having the exact same dream. It's crazy, but ever since my parents passed away a few years ago I have had really intense dreams about them. I wake up screaming and crying and shit. They get me pumped like a nightmare, but they aren't bad dreams. They are pretty much the same. My mom or dad, or sometimes both are sometimes in the place I live in now. Then there are dreams where I am at the house that I lived in for 20 years, and my parents are there and we are just chilling going on about everyday business. They look so real and are talking to me and to each other and then I become aware that I am dreaming and that they are dead, and I just keep telling them that I thought they were dead, and that I miss them. Then I wake up with tears running down my face and my pillow is soaked with tears. This just happened to me a couple of nights ago. This was the 1st time in quite a long while though. It happened quite often the first year after they passed. I guess its me grieving while I'm sleeping too. I've always been able to remember the majority of my dreams for as long as I can remember, and I could always make myself wake up whenever I wanted to. It was like my special power or something. lol I've also had myself be half awake or half asleep, and I can see and hear shit but cannot move. That shit scares the fuck out of me. And you see like a shadow figure at the bottom of your bed and you are like frozen with fear. This is something completely different then regular dreams. When I have really intense dreams it is usually after I've been sleeping for a good solid few hours. When I have these half awake experiences I have usually just fallen asleep. Anyways its crazy as hell when this shit happens.
 
high|hgih

high|hgih

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  • I have the most vivid dreams sometimes, and I will wake and go back to sleep and start having the exact same dream. It's crazy, but ever since my parents passed away a few years ago I have had really intense dreams about them. I wake up screaming and crying and shit. They get me pumped like a nightmare, but they aren't bad dreams. They are pretty much the same. My mom or dad, or sometimes both are sometimes in the place I live in now. Then there are dreams where I am at the house that I lived in for 20 years, and my parents are there and we are just chilling going on about everyday business. They look so real and are talking to me and to each other and then I become aware that I am dreaming and that they are dead, and I just keep telling them that I thought they were dead, and that I miss them. Then I wake up with tears running down my face and my pillow is soaked with tears. This just happened to me a couple of nights ago. This was the 1st time in quite a long while though. It happened quite often the first year after they passed. I guess its me grieving while I'm sleeping too. I've always been able to remember the majority of my dreams for as long as I can remember, and I could always make myself wake up whenever I wanted to. It was like my special power or something. lol I've also had myself be half awake or half asleep, and I can see and hear shit but cannot move. That shit scares the fuck out of me. And you see like a shadow figure at the bottom of your bed and you are like frozen with fear. This is something completely different then regular dreams. When I have really intense dreams it is usually after I've been sleeping for a good solid few hours. When I have these half awake experiences I have usually just fallen asleep. Anyways its crazy as hell when this shit happens.​


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Did you ever consider lucid dreaming?
 
bowlfullofbliss

bowlfullofbliss

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Have kids and you get to live childhood a little bit again. Playing games and pretending and all that. It can be fun, right up until it's not.....little fuckers LOL!
 
medicalmaryjane

medicalmaryjane

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it's called no responsibility. that's the best feeling. i live kind of like that now and everything is fun and exciting. the thing is that i know eventually iw ill ahve to come back to reality and live like a regular schlep. that's life. that's why i dnt want kids because most people spend more yeaars missing the good life than living it HAHAHAH
 
gogrow

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I guess you could say this is one of the reasons I feel like everyone should trip @2x a year.... it helps to be able to see the wonder in the little things again.
 
OxyKitten

OxyKitten

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Depressing Thread, Aha. So True Though. As I Increment In Age, I Get Closer To Wanting To Commit, Lol.
 
high|hgih

high|hgih

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It is so god damn depressing haah, and tripping is truley the only thing Ive experienced that has any impact on that aspect of my life. Lucid dreaming maybe, but I smoke too much weed for that.

I'm reading this book called Dice Man, and its about a psychologist who makes all of his decisions based off the role of dice. Its very interesting so far, and for him it helped bring the exciting inconsistency of being a child back. Not saying I'm going to do that, but I think he was on the edge of something there..

I've been noticing just throwing yourself into situations you wouldnt normally be in helps life get a little less boring. Not contemplating it at all, just rushing yourself into a terrible situation thats the polar opposite of all your morals, everything society has taught you.. Like running down the street screaming or something... Getting really wasted and asking out a super hot lady just so you can say youve tried haha you get what Im saying.. Its the whole reason why Im in college right now xD
 
kentuckyboy

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When I play hot wheels when I baby sit a 4 year older. It really takes me back to when I played hotwheels as a kid. I started teaching him games that I played as a kid, and we were both having a blast doing it. It's funny I do alot of the things my parents did with me with him, and he enjoys it alot. He's my buddy. His B-Day party is next weekend at Chuck E Cheese. He going to have a blast. I remember going there as a kid playing in those balls with all the other kids. It was a blast.
 
Total Head

Total Head

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it's because when you're a kid you don't usually have major stresses like bills and income and crazy bitches and whatnot. all of your waking time gets to go into what YOU want to do and think about and look at. kids get to stop and smell the roses.

i used to be able to amuse myself for an hour just staring at the drop ceiling in my room. it would lead to a magical imaginative journey partially fueled by all the cartoons and toilet tv i used to watch and all the comics i read. i would wonder about things that were way out of my scope and fill in the blanks with whatever. i had what seemed like some pretty deep thoughts. it really was something else.

if i try to do that now i just feel like a moron :neutral:
 
sso

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society kills the kid in us.


school, f.e most of the day goes into , "sit down, be quiet and do as you are told, ok make a copy of this shit here about some shit you dont care about :)"

work "sit down, be quiet and do as you are told."

getting married , the wife "sit down be quiet and do as you are told"

meanwhile life for the wife "sit down, be quiet and put on this here makeup"
 
sso

sso

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yeah.

memorizing tons of shit, we never had any interest in.

lol, we spent a century memorizing pointless shit.

bet the fuckers that spent decades memorizing encyclopedias really feel silly now,

any schoolchild can match their knowledge with google :)
 
high|hgih

high|hgih

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  • i used to be able to amuse myself for an hour just staring at the drop ceiling in my room. it would lead to a magical imaginative journey partially fueled by all the cartoons and toilet tv i used to watch and all the comics i read. i would wonder about things that were way out of my scope and fill in the blanks with whatever. i had what seemed like some pretty deep thoughts. it really was something else.
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Yes! I remember that too. I also used to notice I played a lot of videogames as a child, and before bead I wouldnt be able to get the images out of my head, and Id love to go to bed some nights because Id want to fantasize about girls in weird scenarios.. Like star wars characters being my parents and my girlfriend being a girl I really liked.. It wasnt even really sexual.. Its just odd, I wish I could go back in time :(
 
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