When I feel conflicted with spiritual problems I always am beguiled at the philosophy of solipsism. It being an incontrovertible concept that is all pervasive, and in my opinion if you can't really prove the existence of the external world then why take to sensational ideas like the literal interpretation of the bible, filled with boundaries on your life, and deny the only conclusive proof of the universe from science. I mean it is quite dichotomous, but as is everything in western society, as our language is designed to have a thesis and antithesis which logically would solve itself by compromising, but being such a complex organism as language is it actually creates either another thesis or the antithesis to another thesis, a male or female.
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