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I was fortunate enough to be gifted with a 50mg dose of dmt from a friend, and it arrived today, so here's my lil synopsis of my experience. I'm not great with "trip reports", so bear with me
I decided rather than to just play with it in two sessions, I'd just do the 50mg and go for a breakthrough experience to get a good feel for this chemical. So I found me a nice spot in the shade behind my house and sat down in the grass with my newly bought vapor pipe. I did rather well, vaping it almost completely in two large hits... definitely different from any other type of smoke i've inhaled, very acrid and harsh, almost feeling like there is a layer of plastic film being deposited on the insides of your lungs.
After the first hit, the physical effects started rather intensely, kinda felt like my inner being was rocking back and forth, ever quicker, gaining momentum all the while, yet never leaving its spot.... like a huge feeling of potential energy.... so I rushed to get the other hit down while the option was still open...
Upon exhaling the second and final hit, the inner rocking feeling transformed to more of a separate entity tugging my arm like a small child would to get you to follow them.... while this is going on, there was a fabric of geometric pattern descending from the sky.. as if the sky was a sheet of translucent filaments, ornamented with these rather amazing patterns.... amazing because of the clarity, and solidity of them, not like acid or shrooms, where the "patterns" are more fluid and flowing; these were more concrete, with sharp lines.... "real" in a way....
As the peak was coming on, the pulling got almost violent, and with each "tug" i expected to rip through the geometric pattern above me (as i was laying on my back looking at the sky at this point) and into....... whatever place is beyond there..... but no actual "breakthrough", which was dissappointing and relieving at the same time.... I wanted to go, but was rather scared by the whole experience at the time, so was relieved in that I wasnt sure if I was really ready for a "breakthrough"
After all of this, I was out of the peak I suppose, and calmed down from the initial shock of the rapidity and intensity of the experience.... I watched a tree move/wave/grow/breath for about the next 10min... it was as if it were trying to communicate to me through interpretive dance or something.... then a bird caught my eye and turned my attention back to the sky (which was a perfect clear blue, a empty palette) which, much to my enjoyment, was now less of the sharp geometry, but rather like looking through a cut crystal... as if the air was solidified into large crystals..... amazingly, the bird disappeared from view as it flew up through the mass of crystals, which is still interesting for some reason.....
I've still got alot of thoughts on the subject, but wont keep spilling this jumbled text. In summation, dmt is unlike the hallucinogens I am experienced with, which is bittersweet.... I surely wouldnt consider it recreational, as fun is nowhere in my description of the trip, but still enjoyable, if you can make sense of that.... acid and shrooms are more fun and silly, dmt is real and serious in a way, which leads me to believe it would be much more useful for my intended purposes. Hell, it even makes me want to give salvia another shot.... feels much the same, just less confusing and more refined....
Definitely a chemical warranting further personal exploration in my opinion
I decided rather than to just play with it in two sessions, I'd just do the 50mg and go for a breakthrough experience to get a good feel for this chemical. So I found me a nice spot in the shade behind my house and sat down in the grass with my newly bought vapor pipe. I did rather well, vaping it almost completely in two large hits... definitely different from any other type of smoke i've inhaled, very acrid and harsh, almost feeling like there is a layer of plastic film being deposited on the insides of your lungs.
After the first hit, the physical effects started rather intensely, kinda felt like my inner being was rocking back and forth, ever quicker, gaining momentum all the while, yet never leaving its spot.... like a huge feeling of potential energy.... so I rushed to get the other hit down while the option was still open...
Upon exhaling the second and final hit, the inner rocking feeling transformed to more of a separate entity tugging my arm like a small child would to get you to follow them.... while this is going on, there was a fabric of geometric pattern descending from the sky.. as if the sky was a sheet of translucent filaments, ornamented with these rather amazing patterns.... amazing because of the clarity, and solidity of them, not like acid or shrooms, where the "patterns" are more fluid and flowing; these were more concrete, with sharp lines.... "real" in a way....
As the peak was coming on, the pulling got almost violent, and with each "tug" i expected to rip through the geometric pattern above me (as i was laying on my back looking at the sky at this point) and into....... whatever place is beyond there..... but no actual "breakthrough", which was dissappointing and relieving at the same time.... I wanted to go, but was rather scared by the whole experience at the time, so was relieved in that I wasnt sure if I was really ready for a "breakthrough"
After all of this, I was out of the peak I suppose, and calmed down from the initial shock of the rapidity and intensity of the experience.... I watched a tree move/wave/grow/breath for about the next 10min... it was as if it were trying to communicate to me through interpretive dance or something.... then a bird caught my eye and turned my attention back to the sky (which was a perfect clear blue, a empty palette) which, much to my enjoyment, was now less of the sharp geometry, but rather like looking through a cut crystal... as if the air was solidified into large crystals..... amazingly, the bird disappeared from view as it flew up through the mass of crystals, which is still interesting for some reason.....
I've still got alot of thoughts on the subject, but wont keep spilling this jumbled text. In summation, dmt is unlike the hallucinogens I am experienced with, which is bittersweet.... I surely wouldnt consider it recreational, as fun is nowhere in my description of the trip, but still enjoyable, if you can make sense of that.... acid and shrooms are more fun and silly, dmt is real and serious in a way, which leads me to believe it would be much more useful for my intended purposes. Hell, it even makes me want to give salvia another shot.... feels much the same, just less confusing and more refined....
Definitely a chemical warranting further personal exploration in my opinion
but yeah, that's me
I can't wait to take the journey myself.
