Hi friend. 75 people checked out your post and nobody has anything to say, seems like we have a lot of people who share your concern.
I wouldnt advise using drugs to deal with emotions. I would advise putting on your strong boots, buckle up that belt and just face it head on. I am not being funny at you by the way.
Forgiveness is something many people overlook and often discredit, if someone has hurt you in some way, the only way to fully recover is to have forgiveness.
If you lost a loved one, maybe you have some letting go to do.
Sometimes all you need is someone who loves you to talk to who will not judge you for your worries or struggles, it just takes being strong to bring it up and initiate the healing.
But when it comes to drugs, it is hard for a stoner or person who isnt you to tell you how a chemical drug will make you react when confronting things that bring about stress and anxiety.
I would recommend asking God for strength, but I am just a stupid christian
Good luck!