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Urca

Urca

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its hard to explain... just so sad. been thinking alot about this thing i had going with a guy, and how he's changed, and how its problably over... then i ask myself why... where is god? fuck im not even religious just looking for some peace. i lost my peace about 4 years ago, went through a really tough bout of depression, lost all my faith except for an intrinsic one in a universal god... there is no afterlife, no heaven or hell, just a huge rush to an abyss of nothingness... and i feel empty and i hurt. guys hurt me, i hurt me, family hurts me... and the one thing you're supposed to be able to go to doesnt even seem real anymore... where do i go? i dont feel god the way i used to, now it seems all made up, and yet i cling to the notion that there is a god, i used to feel it...
 
del66666

del66666

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we all have our low points but hang on in there............im sure there will be light in your life again soon............
 
Urca

Urca

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it didnt even really hit me until i was laying in bed thinking about that situation and then i just started bawling
 
mygirls

mygirls

Medical Marijuana (MOD)
Urca said:
its hard to explain... just so sad. been thinking alot about this thing i had going with a guy, and how he's changed, and how its problably over... then i ask myself why... where is god? fuck im not even religious just looking for some peace. i lost my peace about 4 years ago, went through a really tough bout of depression, lost all my faith except for an intrinsic one in a universal god... there is no afterlife, no heaven or hell, just a huge rush to an abyss of nothingness... and i feel empty and i hurt. guys hurt me, i hurt me, family hurts me... and the one thing you're supposed to be able to go to doesnt even seem real anymore... where do i go? i dont feel god the way i used to, now it seems all made up, and yet i cling to the notion that there is a god, i used to feel it...
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come on over here, i'l fuck the pain away...LOL good luck hope all gets better 4u..
 
VILEPLUME

VILEPLUME

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For what it is worth...I use to complain about my life all the time as well.

About my step father beating me, my mother taking me to court, being used by others. I asked God why does he do this to me, but it wasnt God, it was others doing it. People have free will to do whatever they want, good or bad.

I also came to grips with 2 very important things, life isnt fair and bad sh*t happens to every single person on the planet.

It is your life to live and what you make of it. Everyone has their own hurdles to over come, you just have to push through it and be patient. I worked a lot of sh*tty jobs before I finally got to do something that I actually enjoy.

All I can say is keep going and dont give up, you never fail unless you stop trying.
 
plantvision

plantvision

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VILEPLUME said:
For what it is worth...I use to complain about my life all the time as well.

About my step father beating me, my mother taking me to court, being used by others. I asked God why does he do this to me, but it wasnt God, it was others doing it. People have free will to do whatever they want, good or bad.

I also came to grips with 2 very important things, life isnt fair and bad sh*t happens to every single person on the planet.

It is your life to live and what you make of it. Everyone has their own hurdles to over come, you just have to push through it and be patient. I worked a lot of sh*tty jobs before I finally got to do something that I actually enjoy.

All I can say is keep going and dont give up, you never fail unless you stop trying.
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Very good advise. It is truely a mind thing, trust me there are forces at work that want you to feel this way.

But I learned to change the way I feel about things. There is always a bright side to things.

Prime example in my life right now. I own a farm, every year I invest everything I have into it, that includes my love of the farm.

Last night lost everything to a storm, but it is a beautiful day today, I have my wife and daughter.

Or I could say my livelyhood is gone. I perfer the first one. All will be okay.

Believe me I know it is hard when your down to grasp that, but you must try or it will only get worse.

I still have down times, but now I fight back quickly before it gets me down further.

Fight, get ahead of it, because YOU ARE TRUELY WORTH IT, YOU ARE WORTH HAVING A BEAUTIFUL LIFE.
 
Milovan

Milovan

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Never ask yourself "why"? You will learn this young grasshopper.

Hey there's a lot of good guys out there to take you to the next level.
 
april

april

Pickle Queen
Urca ur so very young, be patient enjoy the small things right now, savour the feeling of craving all ur "first times" i'm only 29 but if i could go back 10 years knowing what i know now lol, wow my life would be soooo different, ya i've seen my share of douch bags and dick slaps, but i don't regret what i have learned, love is about so much more then sex, sex is just one of many ways we should each other how we feel, U will find a guy thats makes u not want sleep. food, only him, just again remember love urself b4 u can love anyone else, u just seem so sad, wish i could give ya a hug!!!!
 
txhazard

txhazard

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Most important thing is not to stress on the trivial shit, sometimes you have to take a step back to what your stressing about to realize it really is trivial.

On a slightly religious note try prayer, and on the secular angle talking to yourself/sky monster of choice can help sort shit out. Helps me...just my .02
 
Dislexicmidget2021

Dislexicmidget2021

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Never give in to the BS life throws at you,for you are in essence indestructable and it is up to you whether u stay broken hearted or not,for if you stay down and let yourself do so you only ensure that you can never be happy again,so look up things will get better!
 
plantvision

plantvision

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Hey Urca, how are things, hopefully now that has been a couple days, things are better.

If you feel like it PM me, maybe I can help, been through a lot of stuff in my life.

P.S. Just so you know, not trying to be some internet pick up dude, I am happily married.

Peace to you and been thinking about you.
 
Johnnyorganic

Johnnyorganic

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I usually check threads out without any regard for who started it.

That habit is about to change thanks to you.

I am SO TIRED of reading your threads.

Nothing but self-absorbed whining.

Enough!

I know I am coming off as a bit harsh, but someone needs to be honest with you.

Your never ending pity-party is getting tiresome.
 
plantvision

plantvision

Active Member
Johnnyorganic said:
I usually check threads out without any regard for who started it.

That habit is about to change thanks to you.

I am SO TIRED of reading your threads.

Nothing but self-absorbed whining.

Enough!

I know I am coming off as a bit harsh, but someone needs to be honest with you.

Your never ending pity-party is getting tiresome.
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Jeez Dude, have a little sympathy, depression can last a long time in some people.

We are all connected, when you hurt somebody you hurt yourself, likewise when your help somebody your helping yourself.

If you don't have something helpful to say, why say it at all.

Peace to you, and hopefully you can rid yourself of that dark spot.
 
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