cuz the real world requires it
but inside, i'm lonely
especially when I see young moms with kids. i'm 28 years old and had one girl i'd consider a girlfriend when I was 17...6 month relationship
seeing women act sweet with kids makes me think about having kids, having her, having our own place. instinct just screams at me lately that THAT is what it's about
the other day in fort Collins CO, i'm driving down the street and a girl darts out in the road. I just happened to be in a rambunctious mood and the girl that got in my car I think was a hooker. Very abused, subservient and apologetic, etc. I fondled her ass for a while (we massaged each other, I massaged ALL of her except internally)
but afterward I felt lonely. perhaps even more lonely than when I first encountered her
after I rub one out sure, I don't think about any of this
but at the beginning of the night when I go out, what's on my mind is being nestled up in some girl's hair...talking crazy dumb stuff to make her laugh, etc. wanting to get to know someone who's real into me, as into me as i'm into her, and feeling intimately explicit on a pre-foreplay level leading into it...
i'm saying I want to get to know her better than she knows herself and FEEL that
*sigh*
goodnight
but inside, i'm lonely
especially when I see young moms with kids. i'm 28 years old and had one girl i'd consider a girlfriend when I was 17...6 month relationship
seeing women act sweet with kids makes me think about having kids, having her, having our own place. instinct just screams at me lately that THAT is what it's about
the other day in fort Collins CO, i'm driving down the street and a girl darts out in the road. I just happened to be in a rambunctious mood and the girl that got in my car I think was a hooker. Very abused, subservient and apologetic, etc. I fondled her ass for a while (we massaged each other, I massaged ALL of her except internally)
but afterward I felt lonely. perhaps even more lonely than when I first encountered her
after I rub one out sure, I don't think about any of this
but at the beginning of the night when I go out, what's on my mind is being nestled up in some girl's hair...talking crazy dumb stuff to make her laugh, etc. wanting to get to know someone who's real into me, as into me as i'm into her, and feeling intimately explicit on a pre-foreplay level leading into it...
i'm saying I want to get to know her better than she knows herself and FEEL that
*sigh*
goodnight