VLRD, I've been out of hand with it since I was 15 or so.
For the past maybe.. 6 months, I only did it very sparingly.. Once every month or so.
But duck, it was pretty bad this time.. Haha, if I would have done a whippet, I think I would have either had an intense OBE, or forgotten to breathe. But I mean they go away so I'm sure I would've been okay.. It was so bad. I took well.. Lets see here, 4 bottles of robo and a box of ccc's. So, 1200mg + 480mg = 1680mg. I remember two things about the whippets. One, I remember not being able to get my mouth to close around it. Two, I remember thinking 'what would even happen if I did a whippet successfully right now? There is no way anyone gets this fucked up ever.' Then I must have been unconscious. Because I remember having to pee, so I went into the bathroom and couldnt find or get to the toilet, so I peed my pants on my bathroom floor. Then, soaking wet, I crawled back where I woke up the next morning underneath our kitchen table. In the morning I was SO fucked up. DXM always did this to me with high dosages, but I was walking outside and the grass, trees, cars. They all looked goofy and foreign. And I looked FUCKED. My eyes were black, I was pale as a ghost, my cloths hadn't been changed.. So I went back inside to get on our deck, where I took my cloths off except my boxers and smoked cigarettes just staring in amazement having some crazy thoughts. I think thats the only thing I ever liked about DXM. Makes you second look our normalness very hard. Unlike LSD or any psychedelic has done for me. Except K and MXE seem to do the same thing...
If you just mean usage in general, I wasn't doing too bad. But that time fucked me up so hard that... I can't say I want to do it again. I've been cutting down a lot. Between that mushroom dose, my heroic DXM usage for 9 years, constant weed smoking, DMT smoking, LSD usage, nBOME usage, various tryptamines.. Ketamine, MXE, MDMA.. And mixing and matching them at the same time.. Its destroyed something. But its for the better. I literally can't even feel anger now. For more than 5 minutes anyways. If I hate someone, I hate myself for having selfish thoughts. I always hate myself for talking to much about myself, which do I? I try not to. But at the same time this all makes me really sad, I also feel very happy. In real life, I have met the girl that I'm going to end up with I think. We are literally the same person and can't even get over it. She is a little different than me, but I love her so much for her differences..
This shit has caused oceans of tears out of my eyes, its just ridiculous. I havent even been smoking, I feel a THOUSAND times less lethargic and that makes me happy, I don't even drink but once a month. I do odd drugs every now and then. But as far as the DXM goes. Its one hell of a drug. And I'm done with its bullshit.
