staypuftmarshmallow
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I ingested an unknown substance but was told it was 4.5 grams of morning glory that was pulverized in a coffee blender put in a blender with 8 ounces of mineral water and sat for ninety minutes mixed every so often and then blended up with half a banana. Other important steps were washing the poison off with warm water and dish soap for ten minutes and placed in a glass with watr and swirled emptied and repeat six times to remove all soap.The water mixture was light brown thick an unkown smell like chocolate and difficult to guzzle down and harsh. A beer was drank periodically to wash down the foul taste. I decided not to puke because I wanted to know what this was like to see some visuals but was uexpected to find this to be similar to a fight to survive. I reexperienced the love from childhood cried like when my mom commited suicide and fought with everything I had not to go under. Luckily I got up to just talk to my girlfriend about the importance of love and I loved her and just some issues in my life. I was alone in my bedroom when I panicked because three or four years earlier I experienced something my mind couldn't face and I then started questioning things and panicky thoughts. I'm glad my girlfriend was there because I could tell I was in danger if left alone of going under and possibly not returning. I escaped unscathed but in my panicked state I noticed the walls vibrating extremely rapidly. I also noticed that my eyes were dilated but not huge with my left pupil noticeably larger than my right with my face looking normal. My left eye was the source of aggravation three years ago when part of my personality submerged from what I couldn't face. The next couple of days my mind was open and I was able to completely resolve my problem and face what turned out to be not bad to face and it was fine. But I came away open to love and saw how important love and being strong is. Nothing else comes close to love and all problems dissapear when we love each other. Another thing I walked away with was how easy it was now to detect possible deception. Also do not let the mind wader I believe on it or engage in any troubling thoughts or possible deceptive ideas in the world as all that shit could trap you. Also all phobias and anxieties dissapeared and I found how easy it is to lie to deceptive authorities without anxiety as all that dissapeared. I weigh 210 pounds and from what I read you won't get a useful trip or you could lose awareness on a double dose of what I took for my weight. I think this is a powerful substance for those pprepared and can help you know the importance of love but the fight is strong and from what I've gained I will have to think twice about taking something like this again just because o the struggle. At the beginning of the trip I did see some images like a field of hundreds of women's eyes. And oh the next day sex was so intense and pleasurable possibly like the first time.
