getwrecked
Well-Known Member
So, I was just sitting down smoking this blunt after I had gotten done watering my girls. I began to just zone off thinking about random shit, I know you all know what im talking about. Your playing some tunes and 10 minutes later your mind is jumping from subject to subject to subject all within like 3 minute intervals.
I was thinking how exciting growing used to be for me, dont get me wrong I love everything about growing...I cant imagine NOT growing. But...BUTTTT.... I remember my first grow like 4-5 years ago, it was a cheap CFL grow I did, cost me like 50 bucks total..I remember I made the most cheapest POS grow reflector out of a shoebox and aluminum foil. Than I wired two 45w cfl bulbs with a extension cord and taped up the lose wires.
I might have yielded 20 grams AT BEST.
andd... I tell you what, that was the most exciting grow I ever did, I truly felt proud of my little ugly nute burned, over watered, horrible ph'd little baby girl of mine.
I have so much shit now, that I nearly spent about 6 of my work checks on all the shit I have in my room now, My room is cluttered with so much grow shit, my plants are a zillion times better, quality wise, strain wise, nutrient wise, EVERY possibly way...
But....I dont seem to get that feeling anymore that i used to get when I would be growing its really a shame, I have a feeling I might be the only person like this. I love marijuana, Ive spent the past 8 years smoking it and im 20... i began smoking when i was 12.
There is really No point to this thread, Im just faded and kinda rambling about my feelings about growing nowadays compared to when I first began. Then again it could be the fact that I got laid off, and I cant find a job and... im currently fighting edd to get paid for the last 12 weeks.
Its weird... anyone feel this way or am I completely alone on this one....
I was thinking how exciting growing used to be for me, dont get me wrong I love everything about growing...I cant imagine NOT growing. But...BUTTTT.... I remember my first grow like 4-5 years ago, it was a cheap CFL grow I did, cost me like 50 bucks total..I remember I made the most cheapest POS grow reflector out of a shoebox and aluminum foil. Than I wired two 45w cfl bulbs with a extension cord and taped up the lose wires.
I might have yielded 20 grams AT BEST.
andd... I tell you what, that was the most exciting grow I ever did, I truly felt proud of my little ugly nute burned, over watered, horrible ph'd little baby girl of mine.
I have so much shit now, that I nearly spent about 6 of my work checks on all the shit I have in my room now, My room is cluttered with so much grow shit, my plants are a zillion times better, quality wise, strain wise, nutrient wise, EVERY possibly way...
But....I dont seem to get that feeling anymore that i used to get when I would be growing its really a shame, I have a feeling I might be the only person like this. I love marijuana, Ive spent the past 8 years smoking it and im 20... i began smoking when i was 12.
There is really No point to this thread, Im just faded and kinda rambling about my feelings about growing nowadays compared to when I first began. Then again it could be the fact that I got laid off, and I cant find a job and... im currently fighting edd to get paid for the last 12 weeks.
Its weird... anyone feel this way or am I completely alone on this one....
