Keep your head up Hydro and here's hoping things pick up soon. Try not to worry about everyone else and focus on yourself. The ones that matter will stick around for you. Stay on your doctor about that disability thing too. If you can get retrained and support while you do it, fight for that and think hard about what you'd "love" to do.
Me, I'm on my way back to the docs the end of this week. It's been almost two years since I've seen him. I got a such a high when I finally got into school that I stopped taking my depression and anxiety meds thinking everything was all cool again. Well it wasn't. Last term was a real bitch and lately I've realized I can't do it myself. My bouts of depression have been as strong as they've ever been if not worse, so back on the meds for me. Also, the migraines I've gotten since I was 3 have completely changed. They used to be only a couple of times a year but of the most severe kind with vomiting and the whole shebang. Now they're less severe but they're weekly and almost daily, and they always start with my eyesight going and finishing with the usual day two hangover. It's mostly the loss of vision that screws me for steady jobs, especially driving jobs. I don't drive far from home without another licensed person with me. Haven't even touched on all the aches and pains that are just getting worse. This is why I'm getting my garden going again. To hell with waiting for people to figure shit out. Also, I'm looking to grow some shrooms. I've heard many migraine sufferers treating themselves with psylocybin and getting fantastic results. Either they're micro dosing daily or they're doing monthly sessions, Right now my cannabis supply is sporadic so I'm going to be asking for some meds for the pains. My hips and hands get real nasty these days. Hopefully I won't need them for long. If I can get my gardens going I really think I can get things back on track while living narcotics free. That's my goal anyway.