HELP PLEASE ........i stepped in it

[justugh]

I hope the best for your case. Either way, kiss freedom goodbye. Being on probation / parole sucks. Gotta pee clean and hold a job for starters.

bipolar adhd dyslexic

my only job is not to kill myself or other ppl ........go to the doctors at my apointed 1 time a week visit and take the god awlful pills they tell me to take

the meds i have to take since i can not smoke .........i will be a brain dead zombie with in 2 months ........it will be lucky if i do not piss the bed at night

if u know anything about the pills u would never allow your family to take them so here is a preview of the hell i am about to live
http://www.crazymeds.us/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Meds/Depakote not this yet
http://www.crazymeds.us/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Meds/Trileptal
http://www.crazymeds.us/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Meds/Seroquel not this yet
http://www.crazymeds.us/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Meds/Desyrel
http://www.crazymeds.us/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Meds/Lithium not on this yet

probation will be nothing to me i will be asleep for 18hours a day and the few i am awake i will be so zombiifed i be like a 7 year .......the longer u take them the more effects u get the greater the damage i been on them first time 12-18 then 20 to 22 then again 31 to 33

permit rapid eye movement
i no longer dream
lost most of my hair
35 overweight it will not drop i tried everything
sleep cycle has been destroyed
stone veins and deep veins (from weekly blood test)
twitches spams
high blood pressure

they have me on low dosing now it is making me dizzy sick to my gut and i am still freaking out looping bad thought tho my head making me more freaked out .......they can not give u the correct dose until after the meds build up

since i stopped i been to the hospital 2 times and about to make it a 3rd ..........i need sleep but my head is not shutting up to let me .....hence this ramble as a attempt to shut it up to let me sleep

thanks for the good wish .......sorry if i freaked anyone out but this is me with out herbal meds before the pills get to therapy lvls and i am a zombie...shutting up now and going back to the crazy ppl site and to debating if i want to attempt driving like this to hospital

 

[SnapsProvolone]

bipolar adhd dyslexic

my only job is not to kill myself or other ppl ........go to the doctors at my apointed 1 time a week visit and take the god awlful pills they tell me to take

the meds i have to take since i can not smoke .........i will be a brain dead zombie with in 2 months ........it will be lucky if i do not piss the bed at night

if u know anything about the pills u would never allow your family to take them so here is a preview of the hell i am about to live
http://www.crazymeds.us/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Meds/Depakote not this yet
http://www.crazymeds.us/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Meds/Trileptal
http://www.crazymeds.us/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Meds/Seroquel not this yet
http://www.crazymeds.us/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Meds/Desyrel
http://www.crazymeds.us/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Meds/Lithium not on this yet

probation will be nothing to me i will be asleep for 18hours a day and the few i am awake i will be so zombiifed i be like a 7 year .......the longer u take them the more effects u get the greater the damage i been on them first time 12-18 then 20 to 22 then again 31 to 33

permit rapid eye movement
i no longer dream
lost most of my hair
35 overweight it will not drop i tried everything
sleep cycle has been destroyed
stone veins and deep veins (from weekly blood test)
twitches spams
high blood pressure

they have me on low dosing now it is making me dizzy sick to my gut and i am still freaking out looping bad thought tho my head making me more freaked out .......they can not give u the correct dose until after the meds build up

since i stopped i been to the hospital 2 times and about to make it a 3rd ..........i need sleep but my head is not shutting up to let me .....hence this ramble as a attempt to shut it up to let me sleep

thanks for the good wish .......sorry if i freaked anyone out but this is me with out herbal meds before the pills get to therapy lvls and i am a zombie...shutting up now and going back to the crazy ppl site and to debating if i want to attempt driving like this to hospital

Man, I'm sorry to hear all this.

There's nothing I can say other than to persevere, never give in without a fight.

You know, if you voluntarily committed yourself for the duration of this trial it would put a real damper on the DA's closing...

 

[justugh]

Man, I'm sorry to hear all this.

There's nothing I can say other than to persevere, never give in without a fight.

You know, if you voluntarily committed yourself for the duration of this trial it would put a real damper on the DA's closing...

before my head goes i been tring to hedge my bets doing everything i know to do

i was going for inpatient rehab but the lawyer said i need to be there the 19th ( once u are in you are in no traveling) ........after that i was thinking about going in after x-mas so i do not wreck my families x-mas ( mental hospital ) and i am not faking i have years of records of this trouble including their own system from jail 2002 8th of weed did 4 months .........the cost of this they already know i can not get them anything so i asked them not to get me anything

i was trying to do good and stay off the government's dime but now i got no choice the app into SSI for bi polar is already moving tho system and the appeals lawyer is lined up ..........i am on medicaid so that might help me with SSI

the outpatient rehab is already signed up for and starting the 15th ......i should complete that just as i lose driving so that works (at some point i just can not do that i stop driving because i know my reaction time and sense of everything around me is shot to hell )

i got rides to court and setting up a method of getting rides to the doctors stuff ............i am thinking of trading my gear to someone for a permit ride system it more then 5000 bucks over the last 2 years of collecting it .......i will give them the rest of everything and just ask them to get me and take me somewhere trade to a buddy and his wife can do it in day time

 

[abe supercro]

my only job is not to kill myself or other ppl ...

Appreciate your wit and sense of humor Amish!!
sounds like a lotta shit to work thru brotha. psychically pace yourself you'll survive, whatever the fk that means. had to try

hey my buddy had a situation once, everything worked out better than he had expected yet he had a contingency plan to live in south america, colorado or someplace where the sun always shines. Talk later.peace amish

 

[justugh]

Appreciate your wit and sense of humor Amish!!
sounds like a lotta shit to work thru brotha. psychically pace yourself you'll survive, whatever the fk that means. had to try
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hey my buddy had a situation once, everything worked out better than he had expected yet he had a contingency plan to live in south america, colorado or someplace where the sun always shines. Talk later.peace amish

thanks for thinking that was a joke but it is the truth .........death has never been far from my mind since i was a teen
i live for 2 things
1 to see the end of the world and be allowed off the collar i kept around the rage in me and kill every asshole person i meet until there are no more or i am killed helping out the good ppl from them
2 the end of the world does not happen at 80 i go to vegas and hire 7 of the hottest hookers they have pop what penis pill they have at the time and go until i die (thinking of going for a around the world pack native American Russian Oriental Indian (as in dot) African thinking Irish for Europe.....and we all know need a big butt Brazilian for South America )if i make it to 80 i want to die that way i even asked a priest if that was killing yourself and no it is not then i was asked to leave

part of bi polar is having balls of steel because u do not have impulse control hence the drugs and this long ramble

 

[abe supercro]

life's too interest'n to not see next year. cld just end right back where ya started anyways -

 

[justugh]

balls of steel must be heavy amish

they dangle pass the knees man

if u want something to give to those girls with balls (girly go nads)
http://www.trueswords.com/polished-brass-balls-chain-ring-p-5048.html

i give these out to some ladies i know as joke gifts they loved them one even freaked me out made a necklace out of it ....girl is a slutty kink god bless them they make it worth getting out of bed to get them in bed

also makes a good gift for ball busting wives gives yours a break and she can hit other ppl with it

abe no i do not care to see another year like this one or any of the past ..........i spent most of my time learning and reading for the last 12 years this world is fucked beyond all fixing ....the whole base of daily life is greed ......i already know what next year hold more of this but in a new form so we do not see it until it is way to late

as far as i can see the major part of the ppl in this world function on greed .....greed of money greed of power over others greed for items
i am no bible thumper by any means

 

[abe supercro]

....girl is a slutty kink god bless them
they make it worth getting out of bed
to get them in bed

as far as i can see...
i am no bible thumper by any means

take it ez amish.peace

 

[abe supercro]

ok last one

 

[BigEasy1]

The best advice I can give you is to stop offering fuckers you don't know illegal shit. Problem solved. I hate to see somebody go to jail over weed but I don't like idiots that make life hard on everybody due to their stupidity either. It's a shame to get ass raped (literally when you go to jail)over offering someone some weed but you made your bed.

I have to ask why would you offer somebody you don't know weed in an illegal state?

 

[abe supercro]

The best advice I can give you is to stop offering fuckers you don't know illegal shit. Problem solved. I hate to see somebody go to jail over weed but I don't like idiots that make life hard on everybody due to their stupidity either. It's a shame to get ass raped (literally when you go to jail)over offering someone some weed but you made your bed.

I have to ask why would you offer somebody you don't know weed in an illegal state?

That's some technical advice there big E.
Everyone's light shld burn so bright! Haaha

 

[justugh]

The best advice I can give you is to stop offering fuckers you don't know illegal shit. Problem solved. I hate to see somebody go to jail over weed but I don't like idiots that make life hard on everybody due to their stupidity either. It's a shame to get ass raped (literally when you go to jail)over offering someone some weed but you made your bed.

I have to ask why would you offer somebody you don't know weed in an illegal state?

your mind works normal .........my mind is so fucked up they have to put me drugs that gives u a high drugged feeling ..........weed normally keep me mellow and lvl but not that day

that was my happy day 1 time a year i go out in public for any lenght of time .....maryland ren fair i was there for 9 hours drinking with ppl ....i was in a hypermanic state just having fun by some random ppl beer paying for a few kids to play the games for free


oh god do i wish i was normal and had the filter or a 7 sec rethink built in but i do not .......it my head thinks it is a nice thing to do it does it ....i thought the guy was in the fair with us at the bar so i offered

 

[justugh]

well here is a new twist

Rehab does not think i need rehab ...........and i can not sign up for it with out failing it
they test for cannabinoids all of them so with me taken CBD oil and the fact i have 12 years none stop smoking ....i am going to piss dirty for months even if i stop the CBDs

the nice lady is doing some looking for me to see if i can join the program she knows i need it for court so it looks good before trail ...but it does not look like i join the program they offer

and if i do go into the program i have to give up CBDs or i will fail and this most likely will be the same way if i get probation

 

[Mr. Bongwater]

HELP please i fucked up horrible


i was drunk and shitt yeasterday and i offered a Vape pen to a undercover DEA


they are charging me with 33gs of weed a felony looking at 5 years is jessup (maryland jail)


i am looking for one hell of a good lawyer in Maryland
i rather be dead the go to jessup and i am not shitting anyone i am bi polar i smoke weed as a med but in my state they do not accept ............the drugs they want me to take instead of weed builds up to toxic lvls in my system since it adapts to it this casues damage to liver and kindey plus the cost of them is well unbeleiveable per month almost 600 bucks


so help a fellow freaking out stoner ...............not if u have a place in mexico where i can work for room /borad and internet i will be your man for 11 years

this is a prime example of what is wrong with the world. 5 years for 33 g's???? thank god i live in canada but good luck bro thats the best thing to do find yourself a damn good lawyer. fucking pigs

 

[abe supercro]

 

[justugh]

this is a prime example of what is wrong with the world. 5 years for 33 g's???? thank god i live in canada but good luck bro thats the best thing to do find yourself a damn good lawyer. fucking pigs

really it was only 0.3ml or 0.1 gram maybe 0.2

the 33 grams is the weight of the whole O pen plus the 2nd empty cartage i had

i am taken a battery and empty one to fight the weight of what they are charging ....as far as i know it still listed as 33 grams not what it was

 

[Mr. Bongwater]

really it was only 0.3ml or 0.1 gram maybe 0.2

the 33 grams is the weight of the whole O pen plus the 2nd empty cartage i had

i am taken a battery and empty one to fight the weight of what they are charging ....as far as i know it still listed as 33 grams not what it was

oh my sweet jesus are you serious? they weighed the pen and cartridges???!!! thats some corrupt shit there my friend i just lost faith in humanity

 

[justugh]

oh my sweet jesus are you serious? they weighed the pen and cartridges???!!! thats some corrupt shit there my friend i just lost faith in humanity

no shit ....that is what is freaking me out

10 grams or less in my state is a ticket with 250 buck fine ..........i feel i am getting railroaded into jail

i have no idea what is going to happen they seem to be making up own rules when it comes to me

 

[Mr. Bongwater]

no shit ....that is what is freaking me out

10 grams or less in my state is a ticket with 250 buck fine ..........i feel i am getting railroaded into jail

i have no idea what is going to happen they seem to be making up own rules when it comes to me

well if u get a good lawyer i think he'd he able to convince the judge that how they weighed the pen and cartridges is absolute corrupt bullshit, thats like if you smuggled drugs in your gas tank and they weighed the gas tank, fucking stupid. you should win in court though

 

[mudballs]

you're 35...just make up a dream life you want and think on it all the time. it's a long walk one step at a time but you can get there. just think about colorado, there is a place and community of people that won't persecute you for being who you want to be and doing what you want to do. you just have to get there. ok uou have some shit to get through but it won't be forever and you can focus on spending your remaining days in a happier state of mind. i've been where you are, not bi polar but a dark place. people suk, i can't discuss what i would do to that dea agent but we all don't suk or these ppl wouldn't be supporting you as best we can through this, right. buckle down, don't let them win, get through it and you will have a dream come true. you gotta believe me i made it happen. 2 drug charges and i understand the fear you have, the 'not knowing'. there are thousands of people trying to change the world for us and we've had minor success, colorado, washington, etc. we need you stay in the fight.