Went to see my stepdad today. Holy crap that was hard. He has been talking gibberish and i was told he probably would not know me. My sis whispered to him i was there and he opened his eyes calling out my nickname.. I held his hand and he gave me a squeeze and told me to get better. Cant believe he was laying there thinking of my stupid knee. I thanked him for the time we have had and told him he did great in life. Good men go to good places. He squeezed me hard in the hand. Phew
Hours maybe days left. Still cant believe how fast it all went.
Fucking cancer! Leaving the hospital my "grandma" (Dad's mom) called me to say she's been having stomach pain for a few months and she is waiting to know what type of cancer she has.. This year... oh my.. I went to see her as she was only an hour from the hospital. She told me the doctor had been giving her pain meds the last two months even tho she kept saying it got worse. Stinking doctors making more money handling it with pills and phonecalls than taking people in for examination.. Up yours danish health system!
Cant really get my mind straight on anything right now. I had the oil i made for my stepdad and thought id make some cookies. Just to try it and get going instead of sitting feeling like crap. Also a friend of a friend is suffering from schlerose i believe it is. Muscle cramps. So hope he will benefit from some cookies. Used 3ml Shark Shock CBD oil. They taste good with a strange aftercoating of what to me seems like hash oil more than cannabis oil, very strong. I was surprised when after 5 minutes of eating a small piece i felt incredibly relaxed and sleepy. Thought i was to "tolerant" to feel such a small piece. Was abit overwhelming at first actually, but after half an hour i smoked a bong hit too. Been fighting the urge to sleep a good 3 hours and im ready to sleep now.
Hey its christmas here.. Hope you have a good time with friends and family..
Thank you for being the best friends i've never met! Hope we change that one day..
Merry Christmas!