op good luck and keep positive! Just to put it on the table...I used to inject over 200$ a day worth of dope and have been clean for going on 6 yrs now. If u truly want to change you will. I know the life I live when I get high, and the life I created for myslef when I'm not using. U just have to find something to grasp that's better than the otherwise miserable life u live while using, but ultimately through the addiction u convince yourself it's a good life when ur high and everything is ok.
Do I still wanna get high some days...FUCK YEA! I know tho, that my survival depends on me not getting high. Also that the beast I created thro my addiction will always b there and I need to b strong and battle that side of me. U werent born with a bottle of whiskey in your hand nor was I high on heroin. Take the energy u use to get your fix and put it towards life brotha. It will reward u greatly for being strong!
My name is beuffer and I'm an addict...some days it's hard for me to eat with or see a simple spoon. I'm strong like each and every one of u tho, and pick that spoon up and say fuk u to my addiction
and q tips and cig butt cotton, seeing a needle at the docs office, I could go on and on lol. BE STRONG!!