Well get some serious help. Being dysfunctional is not a badge of honor, nor is it a badge of shame. It's a problem. It's not an excuse to be a douchebag. I have family and friends who are scarred from their many deployments, some S.O. over decades, and they don;t act like assholes. It's tough, I get it, and hope you can find some peace. But if your greatest life accomplishment was serving in the military and you think it gives you the right to be a jerkoff for life, you missed something along the way. Be proud of your service, but have some pride in yourself and those with whom you served. It's the ghetto negros that give the rest a bad name to the majority and keep the struggle for all going.
Good luck.
Salty answer coming up........
il get help when i feel ready to get it ... heres the thing....ive spent my whole life bottling shit up inside and getting t aken advantage of..I got fucked in the Army and now being out civilians dont understand why most vets are pissy, and salty...
to be hinest I hated every day i served......i did it because i have a family to support...then I came back from afghanistan in 2012 and all shit went down hill
Ive went to a VA clinic and got booted out ....cuz I needed hel and they wernt tryin to here it so I started flippin shit ......
Im telling you , i am probably one of the few that do not give a shit any more....i have a close circle of people I hang with and thats it .
to be quite honest I have a few close friends that are actuallu scared to set me off becasue they know that damage I can do....I can go from happy as a pig in shit to fury pissed in a nano second
im not trying to ask/look for pity .....i just dont care anymore....when im out and about and someone pissed me off .......they wont forget me