I just realized I can't do it it costs too much to run and time consuming and very stressful incase I get caught I need to concentrate on my studies and save my money, I'm down to my last few stash and I've already stopped growing.
Do you have any intentions in quiting at some point?
I quit smoking, I don't smoke when I'm in school that's stupid. Last semester I did start smoking half way though the semester though. Before that I was the first one to do my assignments every week at ease. Everything was fine, but it literally changed the moment I smoked. I started holding off the assignments until the nights before they were due, and I didn't put any thought or interest in them anymore.
And on top of everything it made me very insecure. The second I took my first hit, I felt like I zoomed out and shrink, fears flooded my head "why have I been doing this, why have I been doing that, no no no" just filled with paranoia and my personality changed.
On that night I even threw away the weed half way though my first joint and swore I wasn't gonna do it again, the next morning I bought some again and carried on like that and I got accustomed to those bad feelings quickly..
I quit at the right timing when I was sick of it like you. Then you're gonna feel like you need something else like coffee or cigarettes or alcohol.
I quit cigs a month before weed so I was good. I struggle with alcohol cravings the most right now. And I gave in to coffee but that will fuck you up too with anger and anxiety and sleepless nights it's the worst.
Better to just deal with emotions sober though. Just listen to your body and do what it really says not shut it up with substances.,
