Home Alone for Christmas... anyone else?

[whitebb2727]

NICE. Mostly, someplace to relax in nature while sharing a phattie.

I know where a nice cave is. We sit at the top a couple hundred foot above the cave floor.
I know where a small waterfall is. Sand has built up over the years. Makes a nice swimming hole.

everytime i hear catfish reminds me of that morning i went fishing hungover and was chummin off the side of the boat...they were catching them left n right, i just wanted to stop puking lol

Best catfish bait I ever used was some liver that I left in the live well for a week in the summer. A nice putrid green.

 

[hyroot]

Cruise out to socal. Christmas at the beach. A lot of people are over. I don't know most of them lol. Lots of food and flowers and wine.... I didn't bring any hash. Left that at home. Very little left.... but i got some gg4 and Mt rainier flowers.

 

[anzohaze]

NICE. Mostly, someplace to relax in nature while sharing a phattie.

I use to have a 17t flats boat and me and my bro would go.out in the ocean about a mile off shore cutnthe engine and just float and go up and down the swells...talking about relaxing smok'in fatties.....the life then kids came ; ) and that don't happendix anymore lol

 

[whitebb2727]

I use to have a 17t flats boat and me and my bro would go.out in the ocean about a mile off shore cutnthe engine and just float and go up and down the swells...talking about relaxing smok'in fatties.....the life then kids came ; ) and that don't happendix anymore lol

I still hunt and fish and get several times a year to do it. Don't drive yourself to hard. Take time to enjoy the small things.

 

[ttystikk]

Awwww just got off the phone with a buddy, making plans for a visit and a ski trip!

I am not suffering just because I'm home alone on Christmas, far from it!

 

[ttystikk]

I use to have a 17t flats boat and me and my bro would go.out in the ocean about a mile off shore cutnthe engine and just float and go up and down the swells...talking about relaxing smok'in fatties.....the life then kids came ; ) and that don't happendix anymore lol

Gotta make time for that shit, bro. Maybe not all the time, but some time. Or it is not living, it is merely to exist.

 

[mr sunshine]

Christmas was good. I need to spray my plants .
My trays done. Lasted 1 grow before it cracked down the center.


Fuck you Craigslist.

 

[tyler.durden]

I'm home alone, and I love it. Busier day than I planned: sold a couple ounces, did a little last minute shopping, then saw one of my favorite prostitutes at an AP hotel and fucked her in the ass. Pretty high now, doing some cleaning before the obligatory family thing tomorrow. Not really looking forward to that. I'll probably have my kid this weekend, that should be fun. Traffic was great, too. All in all a pretty nice day...

 

[ttystikk]

Christmas was good. I need to spray my plants .
My trays done. Lasted 1 grow before it cracked down the center.


Fuck you Craigslist.

My beard is cooler than yours.

 

[ttystikk]

I'm home alone, and I love it. Busier day than I planned: sold a couple ounces, did a little last minute shopping, then saw one of my favorite prostitutes at an AP hotel and fucked her in the ass. Pretty high now, doing some cleaning before the obligatory family thing tomorrow. Not really looking forward to that. I'll probably have my kid this weekend, that should be fun. Traffic was great, too. All in all a pretty nice day...

You will never know just how close that came to an accurate description of my day, today. Only, not a couple ounces. And I don't need no motel room to fuck a hooker in the ass.

And bonus, no family to deal with tomorrow.

Jealous yet? No?!

I spent all evening making the best damn bloody marys I've ever tasted.

NOW you're jealous!

 

[Will Ferrell]

Yep, my first Xmas alone. Well, I just got through Xmas eve. Very depressing. My dog got ran over exactly one year ago today. I live out of state away from all my family. Seperated from my gf about a month ago, we've been together about 12 years. She moved back home to tx. Idk why, I'm guessing something is seriously wrong with me, but I stopped talking to all my life long friends years ago, along with most family. For me, its impossible to balance friends and gf. I gave her 100% of me. I can't tell you guys how miserable I've been for the past 6 years or more. I think I may be institutionalized. I don't go out, unless it's for a delivery or the store. I feel very uncomfortable, horrible anxiety when I just think about going out to do something that would be entertaining. So today I played about 4 Holdem tournies, about 10 spades games, little work in the grow shop, and paced my hallway for several hours looking out the window. Sadly, that's been pretty much my life for the longest.

 

[ttystikk]

Yep, my first Xmas alone. Well, I just got through Xmas eve. Very depressing. My dog got ran over exactly one year ago today. I live out of state away from all my family. Seperated from my gf about a month ago, we've been together about 12 years. She moved back home to tx. Idk why, I'm guessing something is seriously wrong with me, but I stopped talking to all my life long friends years ago, along with most family. For me, its impossible to balance friends and gf. I gave her 100% of me. I can't tell you guys how miserable I've been for the past 6 years or more. I think I may be institutionalized. I don't go out, unless it's for a delivery or the store. I feel very uncomfortable, horrible anxiety when I just think about going out to do something that would be entertaining. So today I played about 4 Holdem tournies, about 10 spades games, little work in the grow shop, and paced my hallway for several hours looking out the window. Sadly, that's been pretty much my life for the longest.

If you're serious, I'm sorry to hear you're hurting, brother. The reason I ask is only because it can be hard to tell the serious from the satire in print.

 

[Will Ferrell]

If you're serious, I'm sorry to hear you're hurting, brother. The reason I ask is only because it can be hard to tell the serious from the satire in print.

Yeah I wish I was joking. I think I've probably got so many issues at this point, I don't know where to begin. Separating is probably a step in the right direction. Quitting weed would probably also be good. Today is day one again, trying to quit.

 

[ttystikk]

i love you man!! lol

i still got your cell # btw

sometimes i scroll by it in phone book and wanna text just to say whats up, one of these days i will!!

Life is short. Friends are always worth more than money. Don't wait too long, we could be out drinking beer or something!

 

[ttystikk]

everytime i hear catfish reminds me of that morning i went fishing hungover and was chummin off the side of the boat...they were catching them left n right, i just wanted to stop puking lol

LMFAO! That is hands down the funniest puke story I've ever heard!

I'll never be able to say 'chum' with a straight face again!

 

[tyler.durden]

Life is short. Friends are always worth more than money. Don't wait too long, we could be out drinking beer or something!

Depends on the friend and the amount of money

 

[Will Ferrell]

Oh yea I forgot to mention I also drank two screwdrivers. I was kinda planning to binge, but ran out of oj, lol.. I don't know what else to do besides try to laugh at myself. From an outsiders point of view, I probably look beyond psychotic.

 

[ttystikk]

Depends on the friend and the amount of money

Brother, I mean this most sincerely; if the amount of money matters, they aren't your friend.

 

[ttystikk]

Oh yea I forgot to mention I also drank two screwdrivers. I was kinda planning to binge, but ran out of oj, lol.. I don't know what else to do besides try to laugh at myself. From an outsiders point of view, I probably look beyond psychotic.

We cope in whatever way we can. I'm sorry to hear you're hard timing it on Christmas. I'd give you weed but you're trying to quit. I'd give you advice but mine just sounds like platitudes coming from my mouth. So all I have left is brotherhood, I guess; I usually don't drink much either, so I must be more stressed out than I think.

 

[qwizoking]

bro you sound like me 2 years ago. maybe idk.. im drunk

time for another edition of qwizo story time..
prolly wont be a good one as im inebriated
but sincere!...maybe take something from it....maybe itll just be random talking. shit i do this for my sake as well
anyway
sophomore year of highscool i leave home with my gf, terrible home life(was a virgin when i got with her and never cheated). hop around. go to college. etc... she stays by my side through everything. needless to say, a few years after, we got married. again this is the only girl id ever "been with" and we were crazy about each other. i grew weed, and did pharm crap. she was a teacher at this private school seemed pretty great. jan 4th 2014, after another 6-7 years marriage...is when she celebrates her anniversary with her (currently) soon to be wife.. ya i knew she was bi, but.... anyway she wants to sleep with me and spend days with her, while aquiring a heroin addiction.

i lost my baby girl in the blink of an eye.. and my world crumbled...keep in mind this is while i was active on riu.
what do i call my self now without my queen? just qwizo?
anyway. she basically forces me to divorce her after episodes of not seeing her for a week and me for real being a wreck. she just stopped caring idk... i still dont understand.. im honestly still trying to move on.
divorce finalized sept ~20th of 2014. and i really didnt want too

my mental fucking snapped bro. as a man i can try and come off tough or whatever. i was gone. forget putting on a show, i didnt talk to any fam nothing. i just dipped on the world. i didnt lnow how to cope. my brain was strughling to rewire..
within a month im popping xanax like candy to remove the memory and taking caine for an up. another month later im downing 60ct 2mg scripts of xanax weekly and doing 8 balls while munching dilaudid and a bottle of my fav rum almost daily.
anything to get rid of my reality

i had 7 girlfriendsthat all knew each other and i had shit planned out perfectly. tried to keep them from running into each other. but one would on occasion come early and one still be sleep in my bed..you know...

if you cant tell i was heavily compensating. taking a shower alone? a cold bed? what i wouldnt give for a girl to actually love me and just lay her head on my chest and get one good nights sleep in a warm embrace

i got fucked up...im truly enveloped by every carnal and dark aspect of my being. relishing in horrible activities

beginning of sept im still tech married while fucking a girl on her 18th birthday in her husband's bed with her little girl on the bed watching me bouncing rhythmically. i could tell you about thigs that have no statute of limitations. things thatvare still burned in my mind.. i turned wannabe family man to shot caller with prominent connects. doing things i dont wanna share
my mind went dark..
that 18yr old got pregnant late jan 2015..being married she wanted an abortion. but she kept it..n i have no contact

my safety net of women and drugs began to backfire. and i was even more mentally destroyed. dont judge on the 18yr old..if anything give me shit about the 17yr old or much worse activities i dont dare mention


since jan 21 of this year ive been trying desperately to regain not only my sanity but humanity.




shit i fucked up....this story is gonna take too much space and im not even giving detail... and i was really just getting to the turn around.
long story short.... i called my gf for the first time in a month today. shes safe for me, i know i hurt her all the time though. she hasnt been with anyone but me in over a year and i fuck around like i do, plus dont respond for a month. nobody knows where or has been inside my current home. im ashamed , embarrassed at where i am now mentally. even my olace is a wreck.
but i think im moving forward. i feel like after looking at the past 2 ueas of posts ive come a long way idk




what you should take from this?
fuck if i know. dont be like me i guess.

much love, good luck on your travels