@Will Ferrell no trade seriously? I'm 31 and I have experience in the oil field, machine shop/metal fab, I can build a house from the ground up/independent contractor, heavy equipment operator (the only thing I can't operate is a maintainer) but even with all that experience I still consider myself by trade as a bartending because I am great at it and constantly make over 20 a hour.
So I have lived half my adult life as grower as my means for income. It took me long to finally figure out how to be profitable. Because the quality is going up and prices are going down.
First I strongly suggest having a regular job and growing on side for extra money.
From my experience I spent the last two years growing in three houses at 14,000 watts not including side projects. I fucking hated it! But I was also doing all the work and remodeling the damn houses for free (well free rent) and spliting that 4 ways.. Fuck that noise! But I got nice gig going for me at the moment.
But there is no way you are 32 without experience in anything? That is unless you get disability, welfare and food stamps, or rich ass parents.. I guess?
But regarless a trade is something you enjoy and have skills doing so, even if you are a dish washer. (throw out to bruce lee)
So lets talk about the garden.
Pros.
You're using good ducting and it appears you have built a sub panel.. Idk it might just me your breaker box.
You are using large pots.
And everything looks kinda clean.
Cons
Cool tubes suck unless you are running them vertically and even then.. You are bouncing through the glass just to reflect off the reflectors. And your reflectors are to large you are losing half to the walls. Check out 1000bulbs.com you can buy you nice hoods for 60 a piece.
I'm not sure if you are legal but fuck just growing three plants. You should have 15-10 gallon pots for 3k or 27 at 5 gallons for 3k. Less veg=quicker turn over.
If you must grow trees "which I love" use 30 gallon pots 5 for 3k and do organic no tills. But for the smaller pots use coco and cheap GH maxibloom nutes.. Personally I don't like cloth pots for indoors, but yeah I'm not going to go into that..
And fuck bamboo, that shit will poke your eyes out and doesn't really do shit. Use a trellis.
Other then that everything looks fine..
But bro you got to get out.. I am the same way I will become a hermit so quick growing flowers.
I love working in bars because of the girls. And I am a overly tall guy, with horse teeth, awkward AF with a small(er) penis. But because I am around so many girls and a down to earth guy, well thats all I need. If you don't get out you'll never meet any girls. I'm telling you volunteer at a SPCA and get a job in service industry. It's good money and it's fun.
Well depression sucks bro. I started a thread almost identical to yours last year. I literally had to stop growing and get out and find a real job. Truth is I have my hands tied in couple of grows, but haven't had my own in over a year. Thats why I'm moving to Colorado on friday..
Well sorry about my long ass post, it took me like 45 mins to write. Without a proof reading..lol
And ps. For me, when I've been single for a minute and hook up with a girl, I don't bust right away. Actually usually it's the complete opposite, I can't even get hard until the second night.. Lol
Well best of luck and keep us informed
as already mentions routine is key man have a set bed time n wake time..it'll take a while to get into it but once ur up early every morning you'll find getting to sleep at the time you've set easier n easier.
