Work in progress. When finished it will probably be very long.
So i attempted to put myself into a bad mindstate and force a bad or negative trip on myself. The intended reason was to go back when finished and see what i did to right the ship as it were.
I forced some dark thoughts in my head, forced myself to confront some helpless feelings i was having. The bad experience actually didnt happen until thw next day, and it almost had me never wanting to trip again. Almost.
I thought heavily about how helpless i was in some circumstances. At around 10:30 pm. I took 5 300 mic hits of lsd and put them in my mouth. I took a shower and preoccupied myself with cleaning and looking at some rc i had.
By 11, i had completely forgotten that i had taken anything. I had swallowed the tabs, decided not to take some rc, and as i has spent almost a full week sleep depriving myself, i got so tired and just went to bed. Around 11:15-11:20 i got a text from a friend asking me how i was doing.
Around this time, rainman posted a very very very creepy pic here. Totally ruined the next half hour or so for me.
I was beginning to notice it was getting hard to see, but foe some reason could not for the life of me remember why. I cleaned my glasses, rubbed my eyes, got 3-4 blankets cause i was freezing cold. And made the mistake of looking at rainmans reply to a post someone made on shroomery. (Someone being me but i couldn't remember who at the time) this creepy face got really huge and bubbly and started stretching like it was going to reach out and grab me, which i just couldnt cause the picture was alive for some reason.
Everything around me disintegrated. But in about a span of 5 seconds. When it melted, i found myself standing alone, on the side of a one lane highway. There was a big blue bus parked next to me. A small diner with a glass roof, green and blue trim, and white lights was close by. Sand was the only thing i could see, and it was night time. I was alone. I didnt know how i had gotten there, what was going on. The only thing i knew, was that there at some point had been a man driving the bus, and about 6-8 people i knew who had been riding the bus with me. We had stopped at the diner, because i needed salt. Everyone else was gone though. I wandered around for a few minutes before entering the diner and asking for salt, which they did not have. I wandered back out looking for my friends and to see who was driving. My buddy texted me back, and it snapped me out of the desert into my room. He asked how i was doing again, and i said i was hopelessly lost. Where the fuck are you? Whos driving the bus, where is the salt, and who is driving, we have to leavez there is a creepy face out there (somewhere in the desert i thought) and i dont want to be stuck here when creepyface geta back.
My friend had no clue what i was saying, and did the best thing that a non tripping person could do during a freak out.
He said
Mike. Youre on a drug. Everything will be ok. Just go with it. What bus, what driver?
I asked him what drug? I didnt take anything, im lost in the desert and need to find this salt.
You are on lsd. It is powerful but you can handle it.
Whos on lsd?
You are mike. Just tell me what you see.
Me? Im on lsd? Since when?
Since 1030.
I explained to him the situation, and realized that not only was i outside wandering the desert, i was in the really melty room. I began to look for salt while in my room.
At this point, im maybe half an hour from the peak. The effects are increasing and getting stronger. And im just losing it completely.
I return to the desert, and i see the diner, but from a different angle.
Please note: i experienced three seperate realms while tripping. If i say i was at the diner, the other two stopped existing, and all i knew or had known was that scene there. If i was in the room in my basement, that was all i knew. If i saw the "other realm" that was all. And it encompassed the other two scenes, as well as everything else that could possibly exist. For the most part i used my phone but was unaware of it. When i finally calmed down, i had about 7 hours worth of texting i didnt know i sent.
I wandered around and went back into the diner, asking for salt. The couple people inside were getting annoyed and asked why i needed it, which i could not remember why. All i knew was i needed salt. After going outside, and wandering around i came to a black pool in the sand, and fell in by accident. I "fell out" into my room, everything swirling and a white haze now spreading out.
No recollection of how i got to thw room, just again the craving for salt, and a message from my friend asking what was up. Apparently, when i went to the "desert" i was still using my phone but unaware of it.
I saw a message from my friend and asked him what was going on. He said
You're on acid. You took lsd.
Lsd? Whats that?
A very strong drug. Just ride it out.
Im on lsd. Im on lsd. Wait! Im on lsd. I took it around 1030, and now i have to find this salt i lost!
Why do you want salt? Are you hungry?
No i just need this salt.
I was going through my drug stash, and then i found an envelope with a white paste inside. The outside of the envelope said 4aco det ghb
At this point im still getting higher. Im forgetting that im tripping or anything. But... I just found my salt.
I was nervous about eating the salt because part of my mind saw the other label and was trying desperately to remember why.
I told my friend i found my salt, but couldnt remember what 4aco det or ghb tasted like.
but I've learned from my mistakes mostly still have my demons tho. I've smoked to much DMT to ever watch Enter the void ever again. Have you seen it?
