TLDR: I struggle with an unhealthy addiction. Starting a thread to hold myself accountable. Will post in here failure or success. Hopefully we can all get better together.
So, I've been struggling with alcohol for the last few years. I have been drinking at least 3 nights a week for the last 5 years, and probably 5-6 nights a week for the last 2 years on and off. For me, drinking is 6 mixed drinks, doubles, 12 shots of Absolut vodka in about 4-5 hours. I only drink to get drunk... ever.
I quit cigarettes 16 years ago, but am always fighting my genetics. My mom is 65, has COPD, and takes a hit off her inhaler before she goes out to have a cigarette. My dad, same age, had a stroke 10 years ago, and quit drinking everyday for about 6 months after. He's now back to a 12 pack of light beer minimum per day. He's said for the last 20 years, as soon as the doc says he's dying for sure, he'll go buy a can of chew. Almost like he's looking forward to it. I've had one sister hooked on meth, another on pills, and we are all drinkers.
I'd like to share something I typed up about 6 months ago, to try to help myself. It hasn't done me any good yet, but I'm hoping putting it on here will help me, and maybe someone else too.
Quote of what I wrote;
"When I quit cigarettes it was hard. Very hard. It took years to fully be over it. It took months and months to stop cravings. I dreamed of failure for years. But I did it, because I knew it was worth it. I'm now living in my personal paradise, but drinking away my memory almost every night.
I'm hurting my body and I know it.
I'm hurting my family life, and I know it.
Do I want to watch my girls grow up?
Is what I'm feeling now, worth the consequences that I know will result from this?"
Ive personally seen someone drink themselves to death in under a year. I have family that can't walk up a small hill.
I don't want your sympathy. I only want your accountability. Bust my balls, tell me I can't do it. My strongest motivator to quit cigarettes was an asshole manager that was only nice for the 1st time, just to tell me don't be too upset if quitting doesn't work (cue asshole smile)
So, I've been struggling with alcohol for the last few years. I have been drinking at least 3 nights a week for the last 5 years, and probably 5-6 nights a week for the last 2 years on and off. For me, drinking is 6 mixed drinks, doubles, 12 shots of Absolut vodka in about 4-5 hours. I only drink to get drunk... ever.
I quit cigarettes 16 years ago, but am always fighting my genetics. My mom is 65, has COPD, and takes a hit off her inhaler before she goes out to have a cigarette. My dad, same age, had a stroke 10 years ago, and quit drinking everyday for about 6 months after. He's now back to a 12 pack of light beer minimum per day. He's said for the last 20 years, as soon as the doc says he's dying for sure, he'll go buy a can of chew. Almost like he's looking forward to it. I've had one sister hooked on meth, another on pills, and we are all drinkers.
I'd like to share something I typed up about 6 months ago, to try to help myself. It hasn't done me any good yet, but I'm hoping putting it on here will help me, and maybe someone else too.
Quote of what I wrote;
"When I quit cigarettes it was hard. Very hard. It took years to fully be over it. It took months and months to stop cravings. I dreamed of failure for years. But I did it, because I knew it was worth it. I'm now living in my personal paradise, but drinking away my memory almost every night.
I'm hurting my body and I know it.
I'm hurting my family life, and I know it.
Do I want to watch my girls grow up?
Is what I'm feeling now, worth the consequences that I know will result from this?"
Ive personally seen someone drink themselves to death in under a year. I have family that can't walk up a small hill.
I don't want your sympathy. I only want your accountability. Bust my balls, tell me I can't do it. My strongest motivator to quit cigarettes was an asshole manager that was only nice for the 1st time, just to tell me don't be too upset if quitting doesn't work (cue asshole smile)
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