Here, let me see if I can give you a glimpse of something much bigger than any words or ideologies.
You are not the Thinker, you are not the one who is thinking inside your head, that is your ego, it's a clever little devil.
Can you for just one second become aware of all the empty Space around you, you will not be able to hold Presence for very long at first, but if you can become aware of Space as often as you can remember, eventually your mind will cease to control you, the compulsive thinking stops, you recognize your true self as pure Awareness, as it were. There is no time, the ego is obsessed with past and future and spends the majority of it's time thinking about them, snap out of it, snap out of satan's spell and be Present, just be. Welcome to Eternity, welcome to Paradise, welcome to the kingdom of heaven.
If this sounds like insanity, then you will dismiss it and live the rest of your life in darkness, but if you understand it, then the awakening has begun, it is irreversible, pay close attention towards Enlightenment, come and dine with me in Paradise.