Well, not sure as to how to approach this, but here goes...
Since the list and the snap giveaways there have been some negative vibes that have led to some unfortunate accusations. I have been quiet for the last couple days thinking of how to articulate what I have to say about this. I feel this is directed at lesser known members, not unlike myself (possibly myself), and I would like to touch on how I ended up here and what my motivations are just to clear the air.
I was researching some crosses on the GPS thread, and this is where I learned of this thread. I came, I read, I offered. Nothing greedy, no searching out free shit and was surprised to see my name on the list for beans. I was excited as I went into this with no expectations.
I have been evaluating my circumstances when it comes to space, and seeing as I started 40 regular seedlings a few weeks ago for a seed run next round, and may not be able to start reporting on testers until the end of summer (I go to half power in the summer due to heat and not liking to pay for AC, also why I offered to spread them out to two very close, long time friends who are trusted not to give anything out). So, if this is acceptable to you Heisen, I'm still down, but I don't want to steal someone else's opportunity that may be better set up for a quicker turn around. I won't be insulted, and no hard feelings.
With that said, I hope everyone knows that I made a sincere offer, no nefarious motivations. Definitely not a scammer, slickster or whatever, just some guy that likes good dope. I will say though, this might all be in my head too. Thanks to some PTSD related social anxiety, any bad mojo makes me feel like I'm in the centre of it.
I apologize if my enthusiasm was misread as anything else.