Taking hallucinogens is a great way to mess with your reality, and to confuse yourself, from experience its a 'really' bad idea, you are more likely to experience the horrors than a spiritual experience, especially if you are already anxious and depressed, so don't do it, don't listen to the hype. Take it from a former Glue sniffer and LSD user, its not worth it, your own brain will punish you. There is a big push to sell hallucinogens as some sort of medicine, its not, I ended up looking anorexic. Stick to weed. Just because Bill W had a spiritual experience using the Bella Donna treatment does not guarantee you will also experience euphoria, you are more likely hallucinate being in a snake pit is my experience. they used to print tiny pictures of 'superman' on the lsd tabs back in the day, the guy upstairs took one, believed he was superman and broke both his legs trying to fly out the window, You have been warned.