Look lovely man! Solid 9 only cause they ain’t finished yet
I can only imagine the emotions you are going through. Having my first child 3 years ago I can relate to you more than before coming a dad, a loss of a child is the worst thing I can imagine.
What kills us is the question, what if? Those two simple words which open up infinite possibilities and we use those ideas as fuel to torment ourselves.
What if she lived longer? Well there’s no telling what potentially was in store for you or your child. What if you both died in a future car accident? What if she lived another 3 years then tragically passed? As far as I can make of this world is that it doesn’t give a single shit about our personal feelings. Am I right? Life is brutal but life is honest. There’s no denying that. Our pain comes from not accepting what is and we ask the question, what if instead.
The burden of self-consciousness you could say.
You might want to ask yourself what do you love in that child? Is it the body? Or is it the life force that’s inside the child? Without that life force the body can not be. Of course the body is the most beautiful part of them to observe and is a reflection of that life force. The life force goes the person, plant etc withers and decays. So ultimately that beauty comes from life.
You loved the life in that child. Who cares what form the body is in? It’s the life you love. Amazingly that life is you as well. As anyone. We are one life force experiencing multiple intelligences. Mankind hasn’t quite grasped the idea that the intelligence he possesses is actually the Earths intelligence. One being. Expressed in multiple forms.
So your child has not ceased to be. They are simply being something else in the afterlife. You might think, afterlife? Well of course there’s an ‘after’ - ‘life’ cause we’re all going to die. In fact the only guarantee of life
is death. Only one. Out of the infinite possibilities that life can do the only one sure to be is death. So death is life. And life is death. They are inseparable. You’re alive now and you will die now, you cannot die in tomorrow or yesterday. For you and everything must face death now, in this eternal moment. And in this eternal moment we all share, now. The dying living and the living dead become equal.
Time can heal the deepest of wounds. But only if one can let some of their pain go. Keep busy. Stops overthinking as you’re most likely aware of. You’re love for her is eternal.
God bless!
