If you read this, please post.
We were together for 2 years.
And this happened.
I'm very hurt, confused, and angry.
I don't know what to do guys. I just need someone to talk
to I guess.
He was my only friend.
I stopped talking to my girls when we started to get serious.
and now that we're over, I feel very very alone.
I can truly say that I'm so angry inside, if I had the chance
to murder his ex and get away with it, I would surely do it.
I've actually been thinking about how to get away with killing
her, and I know that's not a good thing to be thinking about.
I told him staying with him is not what I want because I'm not
going to be sharing the responsibility of a kid I did not birth.
Sunday, she offered to take him out for fathers day. I told him I didn't
want him going out with her and he said he was gonna go anyway.
He told me he was going to his mom's house after going out to eat.
So I waited at her house (no one was home)
and when I see them pull up, he is driving HER car and hugging her!!!!!
(wtf was he doing driving her car!!!!!!!!!!!)
This really made me go crazy. I went outside, punched him in the head
and told his ex to get out the car so I could beat her ass.
She was like "its my son's birthday..." (it actually was, but I don't
give a shit)
and I was like "Bitch, I don't give a fuck. get out of the fuckin car so I can beat your ass"
She just sat there in the car looking scared and this really pissed me off.
(This bitch has been talking shit to me about "beating my ass" for months.
And has been calling me all types of wenches, whores, and bitches.
So I told her when I get the chance, I'm gonna put her ass in the hospital.)
I tried to get close enough to punch her thru
the window but my boyfriend (now ex) was holding me back. He told her
to leave and then we went in the house. I was so pissed, I attacked him.
He told me to get away from him because I'm "crazy" and he ran in the bathroom. Well, I guess I was so pissed and there was so much
adrenaline in me, I kicked the door down
(great, now I just kicked down his mom's door and he doesn't even live
there anymore)
Then I find out, that his ex fucking snitched on me to his gramma
and mom. (now I really want to kill the bitch)
Then his gramma starts sending me texts being rude. I almost cussed
her old ass out. I know you're supposed to respect your elders, but
I'm not the type of person to let someone sit there and talk shit to me.
(thats why I want to kill his ex).
I absolutely HATE when people test me. And that bitch (ex) has been
testing me for months calling me names THINKING I wouldn't do anything.
Now that she knows I'm serious about beating her to a pulp, she hasn't
said anything to me. And I even saw her at school and she didn't even
LOOK at me.
The sad thing is, I absolutely KNEW if I stayed with him, I would
end up seriously hurting, or possibly killing someone and I'd be the
next person on Oxygen's "Snapped".
I don't know how to deal with all of these emotions and I think I'm going
to hurt someone. I just really need some advice on keeping
my self calm so I don't do something I will regret.
Suggestions.....