I don't have any close family, this is purely my own move.
I can't pay for university and have an extremely strong passion and desire for a greater education.
They're willing to provide this to me, plus a job while in school and outside of it. I'm just worried...I'm kind
of scared of committing to it fully, maybe I just don't want to make any bad decisions but being poor with nobody to
rely on, no scholarships or student loan options I can either work all through a 5 year course full time or join the military.
I truly feel I could do great things in the army from what they're offering, but I really don't want to lose some parts and aspects of
my life that I truly treasure and love about myself.
How is personal freedom in the army? What's the commitment like? What are the drug tests like exactly? I was told unless you're being sent out somewhere
the drug tests are completely anonymous and done for research purposes etc etc. Is that true? I've never had to do a drug test before, never gone to jail or
committed a crime, ugh lol. What's it like? being in that situation? that stigma? do you lead normal lives? or are you forever stuck between the middle ground of life and 'duty' ?
I have a few friends who've went who absolutely love it, however they had the personalities after a fashion suitable for solders, I don't want to sound pompus but, iv'e never been like that. I have a strong sense of duty, but love to lead and make decisions, I have my own style about living and have a hard time getting 'spirited' or for this matter 'patriotic' about it. My friends, again I love them, are the type to..well..ok let me explain an example. My friend Marc, awesome guy. In univ for philosophy, brilliant man. Black belt in aikido. He's the type of guy to dive into that shit and eat it too, he joined and it's his way of life, he's all aikido to the extreme. Now it's that plus the army...I took aikido for 3 years, almost a brown belt, But I had a strong dedication and commitment to it out of it being a good martial art, an interest and fitness oriented. *I take muay thai at the moment for the exact same reasons* The army just comes off as a bigger aikido dojo and...I don't want to have expectations to fit into that mold.. Is it possible to do my 'duty' with my passion and desire for my own individuality, my strive and aim to succeed? Or should I try something else.
I'm sure it's simpler for another person reading this issue, may come off as petty even but I'm personally at a loss....I just want to make a positively enforced decision. Life is what you make it, I get that, and if I joined I'd make the best out of it. I just want to make sure I jump at and try my fucking hardest at what fits best for me.