I thought I was the only person that did this............
That's funny, I used to be that way. I thought that I would for sure always be that way. But now I only get that way when I'm runnin' low on jars. Which happens to be my current situation. And I think my WW is about 6 weeks into flower. They could be coming into the crosshairs here pretty soon.
Generally though if your anticipation level is this high BEFORE you've started, you're going to be learning a very serious lesson in patience very soon watchin' some plants grow.
I think it's growing perpetually that finally lets that anticipation subside. If I take a break and start a new grow I'll be the anticipation kills me again.