I wasn't calling FDD a fag, I was calling the original poster a fag.... I didn't even read the thread, I just posted my .02
Well i certainly appreciate the constructive feedback associated with being called a fag by someone I do not know for my dosage not being up to par in my personal psychedelic trips.
About 2 weeks ago I got my hands on another 5g of the mush and woke up one morning without even thinking about it and munched down all 5g. I was determined to see how deep the rabbit hole goes after experiencing the 3.5g trip.
After experimenting with different settings, times of day, atmospheres, and contexts of my several trips, I decided to spend the day alone in my room to keep my space as consistent as possible (advice taken from terence mckenna).
The intial onset began with a much more intense body buzz than my lower dose trips. About an hour after ingestion I started to feel almost a vibration that started in stomach and went up to my head and back down to my feet. I went about my normal routine of examing different things around my room and seeing how the trip was affecting my perception. The more I tried to gauge what was happening the further I got sucked into what was about to unfold in front of my eyes.
I began to feel a building power and intensity inside my head. In all honesty after several varied dosage trips of shrooms, several 80x salvia trips, and alot of experience with what I would like to consider trips off of high doses of cannabis and low tolerance levels, I was not ready for this power.
In the course of 15 minutes after the intial effects began to build I could no longer move around. I laid down and tried to relax myself as much as possible because the anxiety was building. I smoked two bowls of cannabis to ease my nerves and help aid with the intial peak of the trip. At about 1 hour and 45 minutes my vision started to go in and out. The body buzz became so intense it felt as if millions of little insects were crawling all over my body and buzzing like bumble bees. My chest was so heavy that my breathing came in heavy waves almost as if the air was thicker.
After this point I completely left my body and l sort of sat back to watch the show. The best way I can describe my first visualizations would be streams of colors and energies representing different feelings and emotions dancing all around me. The colors became representations of my feelings and thoughts. They swirled around my head and in and out of my consciousness. I became the energy myself and was able to freely travel without the restrictions of a body.
After I broke through the swirling of colors I met an etity I determined to whatever I was meant to encounter on the trip. It started to show me things about the way the world worked and about how people's realities fit together and what makes things happen the way they do. Most of the things it showed me and talked to me about were far to overwhelming for me to remember or even articulate in any way at all. I felt emotions I have never felt before, a sort of warmth and glowing that left me feeling like I was with God himself.
After the entity was done showing me the different things I needed to experience, it wanted to show me some even stranger things that I definatly feel like I was not ready to experience. I felt a complete abscence from anything that was good. I felt isolated and alone from the contact of anything. Even my own thoughts were completely void from my head. I simply existed as nothing. This point was roughly 3 hours after ingestion and the intial peak slowly began to wear off. I began to come back into my body and for the next hour I was still very unaware of where I was or what had happened.
After the hour had passed I was able to rouse myself out of bed and I made my way downstairs. I can honestly say the open eye hallucinations are alot different than the way people have described them too me. I don't see dancing cartoon characters and bunnies and dinosaurs running around everywhere.
I moved downstairs at this point and spent the next 2-3 hours on the couch trying to sort through the peak of the trip in my mind and understand better what had happened. I was becoming extremely drained at this point and was very ready for the trip to be over (6 hours in). I have still yet to sort out everything that happened in my head but it was an experience unlike any of my other psychedelic experiences. I'm not sure I will do shrooms again anytime soon until I feel I am 100% ready for such a powerful experience again.
feedback is appreciated