A little Monday evening tunes....
Got a call from an ex today and this how she made me feel after the call. God I miss her.
She was the person I thought I would grow old with, but things changed. sad really. for both of us.
I made her who she was and I knew that might be my undoing. And it was. I made her know that she was more than she ever thought she could be. I could see thru all of her lies at the end and still wanted to make things work. But they didn't. It was an odd call, almost as if she wanted to know more how I felt about her. And I still wanted her, but wasn't sure if she wanted me. God I miss her. Surely, she wants me back, surely,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,???????????????????????????,,,,,,,,,,,,,,??????????????..But Maybe not...
You're not the man who gave me everything
I've ever wanted
You're not the man
Who stepped inside my life
And haunted every, every day
You're not the man
Who said he'd never leave
Couldn't breathe
And could not sleep without me
That was someone who you left behind
A long time ago
You're not the man
Who would bleed for me
Never shed a tear
You're not the one
Said he'd always be near
You're not the man
Who threw me a lifeline
And you're not the man
I am so proud to call mine
And you're not the one
You're not the man who gave me everything
I've ever wanted
You're not the man
Who stepped inside my life
And haunted every, every day
You're not the man
Who said he'd never leave
Couldn't breathe
And could not sleep without me
That was someone who you left behind
A long time ago
You're not the man
Who would bleed for me
Never shed a tear
You're not the one
Said he'd always be near
And you're not the one
You're not the man who gave me everything
I've ever wanted
You're not the man
Who said he'd never leave
Couldn't breathe
And could not sleep without me
That was someone who you left behind
A long time ago
But don't get me wrong
tho its seems sad
its not all bad you see
I'm not the little girl I used to be.
You're not the man
not the one
He was everything you see
he made me believe in me
said he'd always be near
The one who made me believe in me
That was someone who could do no wrong
But you lost him
Who said he'd always, always, always be here
Man I wish that one hadn't got away....
Sorry to babble everyone, this business makes you not trust folks and so you can't really talk to anyone, But I had to get this down or I was gonna burst. she was and still is everything to me. God I miss her. If have someone that you really love cherish it make it work. Its not as easy to find true love from the bottom of your soul as it would seem. I know I've been looking since this One left. She tore my guts out, but when it was good it was the best, I mean the best. God I miss her.
But don't get me wrong it wasn't all bad, but the bad was fuckin awful, but the good was UNFUCKINGREAL..