ok you are sick, you seem convinced of that ? gotta have those pills.
before i left ohio, i was partying with some people and somone mentioned some pills she was on, and another said the ones she's on, and a guy said what he was on , and another and another and another, and another.
I was the only one there not on meds.
everyone of them said the doc said they had brain problems.
I was the odd ball, as if there was something wrong with me because I wasn't sick in the head and had pills..
it sounds to me like your symptoms are a result of the pills, and they get worse when you stop using them
it's called withdrawl. and return back to reality where everything isnt sunny and green all day everyday.
but hey what ever, it's your life.
just dont stop cold turkey and go postal.