Im pretty much trying to keep myself from trying it. You know, making sure I know the realities... because i am tempted to try harder and harder things, but i want to keep a hold of exactly why its bad, so i dont make the same mistakes as my family
urca, know this much.. addiction very much so runs in families, so if you mom and what was it, step dad are both addicts, you can rest sure as shit if you tried it, or pretty much any real hard drug that has addictive properties, your chances of becoming addicted increase like ten fold..
take if from me.. my gmom on my dads side was a a drunk, came home from a psych ward in the 60s cuz that is where they used to send drunks and addicts back than, and went ahead and jumped out of a third store window.. i don't think i have to tell you how that story ends..
my father was pretty much a drunk, not that he drunk all of the time, but when he did, it was always out of control. my brother likes to drink as doe both of my sisters, although i'm not sure if any of them are really alchy's..
and i'm not sure if you know much of my story, but i've been hooked on everything from coke / crack all the way up to shooting up a bundle of heroin a day.. that's a $130 a day habit.. fun fun fun.. luckily, i just had 10 years clean this may 13th.. i was one of the lucky ones that made it out the other side alive.. i know lots of people's who are dead today because of the same choices i have made..
knowing that you're more prone to addiction and going ahead and using still is a very selfish thing to do, trust me on that.. you'll put the ones who love you in so much pain and agony, and you can never take it back.. you may get lucky and live, and they may learn to trust you and give you their love back, but you never know.. my pops died and i hadn't talked to him for two years before because of drugs.. these are the things that you'd have to learn to live with in a life of addiction.. it sucks, believe that..
and yes, shooting coke feels incredible.. so fucking good that you'll soon forget about everything and everyone but that bag and the rush that comes with it.. you'll sell you soul and more than likely your ass for another hit.. a far drop from your virgin state.. rock bottom comes faster for some and maybe you'll just need to be arrested a few times and maybe homeless for a year or two first.. maybe not, maybe you'll never hit rock bottom till you end up killing yourself via drugs.. happens everyday.. to people of all kinds..
before you think about moving on to any harder drugs, think about what i told you.. i'm not one to sugar coat shit, and if my past can help one person not have to go through it, well then all of my bs was worth something.. i hope you really listen to this and take it to heart , as i'd hate to start seeing threads titled... i sold my ass for a bag today, uggh, i feel like such shit.. but i never will, as by that point paying for something as worthless as the internet will be one of the first luxuries to go by the way side.. just like taking showers daily, brushing your teeth, etc..
