woobystein
Active Member
I sit here behind my laptop at 3:05 a.m. with tears streaming down my face. For the past hour or so, i've been lying in bed, one of those nights where you're not ready to fall asleep and you lay up thinking. Well, I got to thinking about how great all of this is. I mean all of it. All the good, all the bad... everything we are and have been and want to be. Every single act, memory, and intention. I know that words will fail to describe what i'm feeling, but something in me is compelling me to share... and everyone I know is asleep right now, so what better place to come than to the online website where likeminded people gather to discuss the herb that brings us together and facets of life in general. How great is it to be alive? To be reading this? The ability to read, and think, and talk and see and feel... It's astonishing the things that we all take for granted. I say we all because I know that I take them for granted, and afterall... I am you, and you are me. We are here. On a rotating rock in a universe we don't completely understand, while at the same time, we understand it completely.... because we are it. We are everything. This world does not exist unless we exist. Isn't that amazing! My best friend said something to me the other day that i'll never forget... he said.. "Every single person, I love just for the fact that they are human. Just that they have made it by whatever chance into the form of a conscious breathing person, is worth a great deal to me. No matter what they have done in their life, good or bad, they are what I am, and that is significant." When I really get to thinking about what this all is, everything we sense and experience, I can't help by feel overwhelmed with what I can only describe in words as love. Love to be taking air into my lungs, to be able to see my mom in the morning, to be able to connect with old friends and strangers alike, to be able to reach out to a bunch of fucking stoners on a cannabis growing website, whether they decide to care about these words or not. It never ceases to amaze me how amazingly different we all are yet at the same time, we are all the same. When I think about times in the past where I may have dwelled on the negative side of things, perhaps when somebody said or did something I didn't like..... when feelings like anger, frustration, stress, or envy start to well up inside... becoming like a kind of fire that feeds on itself... I contrast it with the times that love shows.... when a person shows an act of kindness, when somebody you love makes you laugh, when somebody who you don't know smiles as you walk past them.... It just eclipses any of the negative. The positive just engulfs everything. There are times when I am pissy and hate everything, but the good times just win over those, always, hands down, without question. The good in people will always trump the bad, no matter how evil or wretched. Unconditional love will always be the victor. This is why we have sayings like "love conquers all" because it really does. Imagine for a moment, a world where everything is let in, without stipulation or discrimination. A free world where we can exploit every ounce of human creativity. If we can imagine it, we can do it. We just need to shift our focus a bit. When I start to think of what this world could be like... what we could all contribute... I feel like a pinball bouncing around in every direction inside!! with an energy that can't be contained! Pure excitement in every sense of the word! Live everybody. Love to open your eyes in the morning, and love those who are close to you. There is so much beauty in the world and so much to be grateful for. I mean fuck! We have something as magical as language to convey these things within us called feelings to each other!!!! To TRULY CONNECT AND SHARE!!!! What is the first thing they teach kids in preschool? To SHARE! Because sharing is CAREing and when we can care for one another, not one single person excluded, it will bring us joy to help out each other. A completely universal, unconditional, endless flow of empathy and love from one human being to another. NOTHING can stop us. I love YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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