It hurts

justadude420

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I'm having a bad last few days as someone close to me passed away day after christmas, and im mad at myself for waiting too long to write back. I will never see her again, gone.......forever.

Don't wait to tell someone you love them.......
 

mellokitty

Moderatrix of Journals
i'm so sorry.
i've let someone go without telling them too. in the years since, although sometimes it still hurts like yesterday, i've come to believe that he knew anyway, and that this is just part of a quest across lifetimes.

:hug:
 

angryblackman

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It does hurt. I am dealing with the same thing but my guilt has been sitting with me for the last 2 years.. I have to realize that it is what it is and my guilt is all selfish and personal. It also affects the ones around you. Good luck coping with it. I hope you can deal with it better than I am.
 

treemansbuds

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Sorry about the bad news justadude420.
Try and think about the good times and not the bad brother.
Life offers her lessons in strange ways, if you learned from it then all is not lost.
Stay Strong...
TMB-
 

angryblackman

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Justadude420 - Processing it is what is taking the longest for me. Keep posing if you like. Maybe it will help me work though my issues as well. I hate knowing that someone feels even 1% like I do about this situation. :(
 

GreatwhiteNorth

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Staff member
So many sad stories - I guess I'm not alone after all.
I lost my mother in April. Our family is very loving & tight - we knew it was coming, she did too & kept our family on an even keel despite her pain.
Hardest thing I have ever done is tell her good by.
 

justadude420

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Sorry about the bad news justadude420.
Try and think about the good times and not the bad brother.
Life offers her lessons in strange ways, if you learned from it then all is not lost.
Stay Strong...
TMB-
Thx for all the kind words peeps.........I'm ok, grandma couldn't wait to see grandpa or her maker. I had sent a letter out about a week before Christmas with pictures of us and the great grand kids, I thought it didn't arrive in time but, I was told she received it before passing away....

She was angry with me because I had not wrote in a long time. I am deaf so I can't just pick up the phone like everyone else......Grandma didn't understand I depend on texting and the computer. I can't really write a letter, my handwriting is unreadable due to a combination of breaking my hand multiple times and not writing in many many years.

I did send her many letters in the early years when grandpa died, however I did not write them and had a friend write them for me.

Grandma wouldn't use computers and refused to try to text, I could always write to her is what she would always tell my family members, if any lesson was learned.....it would be, don't let life get in the way.

What do I mean? I mean I let small things get in the way, it was always I'll do it tomorrow. Don't put off what you can do today, as tomorrow might be too late. Yes life gets busy, but I choose not to make time for the things I should have..... I guess what I'm saying is, it's easy to get too busy and forget the importation things!!!
 

Weedasaurus

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sorry to hear that. If there is anything after this life, then they already know, and wouldn't want it affecting your life negatively. They would feel as guilty as you are for impacting your life in such a manner.
 

Carne Seca

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Wow.. this is so sad. I lost my brother during the middle of last year. We had to split his children up among us. It was our first Christmas and New Year without him. His birthday also was around the holidays. We made sure our celebrations were over the top so the kids could focus on that instead of missing their dad. Plus my mom is dying of cancer and this was her last Holiday season as well. But, my family, being the troopers they are made sure it was busy and fun.

I regret riding the bucking barrel, though. My butt still hurts.
 

Perfextionist420

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Wow.. this is so sad. I lost my brother during the middle of last year. We had to split his children up among us. It was our first Christmas and New Year without him. His birthday also was around the holidays. We made sure our celebrations were over the top so the kids could focus on that instead of missing their dad. Plus my mom is dying of cancer and this was her last Holiday season as well. But, my family, being the troopers they are made sure it was busy and fun.

I regret riding the bucking barrel, though. My butt still hurts.
Thats horrible man and that hurts but it's life, are you sure that's the only reason your butt hurts? :P haha jk I'm sorry I'm just tryin to bring some humor this thread makes me sad :(
 

Carne Seca

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Thats horrible man and that hurts but it's life, are you sure that's the only reason your butt hurts? :P haha jk I'm sorry I'm just tryin to bring some humor this thread makes me sad :(
I don't do the "anal" so yeah, it's all about the bucking barrel. Which is no longer part of my vocabulary. My older brother landed on his head so I think I got the better end of the deal. (pun intended) :p
 

Perfextionist420

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I don't do the "anal" so yeah, it's all about the bucking barrel. Which is no longer part of my vocabulary. My older brother landed on his head so I think I got the better end of the deal. (pun intended) :p
Ah ok lol, it sucks but a huge part of life is learning it's not forever. So many people can relate because this stuff happens to everyone. It's horrible but it's a fact and there's always time for mourning as long as in the end it doesn't ruin your life dwelling on it.
 

treemansbuds

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Hey brother if you need to take a road trip to just "get away from it all" and "get your head straight", I'm about 2hrs 15mins from your home town, (I know what town you live in, but not sure you want that known here) common up for a visit. The foothills are BEAUTIFUL, 73 degrees here today! Feels great for January! We can day trip-it to Yosemite too, I'm a great tour guide...
So if you feel the need to get away, common up...
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