xKuroiTaimax
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Now I feel dirty for having a 13 year old message me... >_> Am I going to jail?!
In all honesty, I would agree with every cynical asshole replying to this telling me I'm disgusting and shes a child and find pussy elsewhere. But you read me, I have been very badly hurt and I have hurt many (too many) girls. I have broken too many hearts for my desires to make the same mistakes. I must admit that question does linger and I know god damn well it isn't healthy to ponder whats missing or whos in the wrong. All day long for the last two months of my life I've wondered why I am drawn to her at all and why I don't get back with my girlfriend who is willing to work through it because she loves me and needs me. Before I even broke up with my ex, my new girl asked if I'd promise not to ever kiss anyone without breaking up with her long beforehand. and I wanted to make that promise even though I lied to my ex and wasnt kissing my ex or having sex with my ex while we were still together. I'm telling ya, the things I do for this girl make me wonder. Ironic songs come on the radio every day, everywhere we go. We tripped and watched truman show, she was stuck on how the girl was from fiji...come to find out the smell she loves so much on me is old spice FIJI, coincidentally having the body spray, deodorant, and body wash. While everyone else is flippin out crying and screaming, she and I are smiling ear to ear doing what both of us love to do. Its crazy, but I hope my sappy pathetic 'pedo' story inspires someone to find a person that makes them have unexplainable feelings. not boners, I'm serious. It sounds gay but I havent needed my inhaler since the day I met her.I think if you love eachother that much, you'll wait for eachother <3 Though i worry 15 is a little early for acid... I know my friends were doing coke and heroin at 15 but here was something really wrong with them. I sincerely hope she is as serious about you as you are about her. I really hope you can be that guy to show her not all men are hit-it-and-quit-it dicks and she won't turn out to be a whiny golddigga ho. You sound like a nice guy, and guys can be 'ruied' and 'broken' too, I 've seen it. They act like they don't care, talking about pussyshanking and whatnot but they're hurting inside after taking a chance on love with a bitchy woman. She seems nice, but there' only so much we can tell from what we've seen. We don't know her. But I wish you all the best.
did I say its attractive? its who she is. people die every day and if an accident was made, if something was mixed up, and she died, I would feel responsible. She KNOWS I'm not cool with ANY pills, any needles, no moly, no X, fuck that. I know shes too young for acid, shes too young for all of this. But I cant fly down from the sky and resculpt this human being. I am not god. I want to help her, make her happy, and it just so happens to make me happy to work for something beautiful, to make a girl smile without drugs.Aside from the whole you finding it attractive that a 15yo looks for happiness through drugs & music.. I am going to go out on a Limb here & say you are not the best influence.
& being unintentionally astonishingly/different every day.. yea man, drugs will do that to a 15 year old. <3
Thanks blazin, guess I'll have to toughen up and do like she told me, 'fuck society'She is a little too young..however, she may be mature enough. If her parents are okay with you, I guess there's no problem.
So many fine lines in life. The one between going to school, doing some wrong, some right, and making it through - and dropping out to shoot up and tearing apart your room looking for any pill to crush up with your heel (now THATS attractive). The fine line between legality and mentality. between happiness and destruction. between just saying no and throwing away all you know for someone you are willing to do that for. The fine line between waiting 5 years to see who she turns into and starting a relationship that could grow or could die, that will get her mind in the right place. Off the fix..You gotta get her off that hard shit though, girls too cute to be popping pills and blowing meth.
A good friend of mine that moved out of country goes on a public webcam site type thing every now and again, so whenever I have time I'll go chat with him for a bit. But the other day there was this random chick that came on in his cam room and she was straight up doing hits of heroin off a piece of tin foil. And I've only seen people snort it and shoot it up in person, but it was fun to see someone chase the dragon for once.
Ohh but yeah, she looked like shit... and she couldn't have been a day over 16. Just taking hit after hit in her bedroom at her parents house.
Whatever mental issues derive from having an abusive ex and feeling like you wasted 2 years of your life being brought down.You, the girl & her parents are the brightest human beings I suppose. Simply going by your posts, you are not as mature & understanding as I am trying to believe. I am farrr from perfect & may have my own issues, but I know them when I see them.
You saying her parents are ok with it means nothing, her parents could be horrible parents for all we know. & her saying she loves you is not valid @ this age, regardless. Now, on to you Mr.. what mental issues are you hiding from us depression? loneliness? None reason enough to cling to a child.
Wouldn't this be the tweens? Oh, the irony....if this was the 60's / 70's, you guys would have 2 kids by now and no one would blink an eye. It was par for the course back then.
...however, this is the 10's after all, so yeah...
GET THE FUCK off your high horse. you are NOT the ideal human being. you are criticizing me for posting on RIU about a girl who does drugs and want to fucking get political? you are fucking disgusting.I would say shame on you. You are hardly a man yet. You only care about if you should be with the girl now or wait? You care if the relationship could grow in 5 years? How about you man up, get this chick off drugs because sounds more like you either become a Sagitory Rapist or you Attempt to wait a few years only to have her become some crack whore stripper. You talk about you & her as if it is even relevant (which it is not), I would say what is relevant is that a 15yo is doing hard drugs & a 22 yo who parties every weekend is interested in her. Whether you want to admit it or not, you obviously cannot get you a bad bitch who is grown cause you are on RIU posting about a 15yo.
Does she not have family, such as older bro? cousins?
I care about women, I lived w/ them my entire life I have 3 sisters. You my friend are not the best catch for this girl & none of us here need to meet you to know that. Maybe she wont find better in your community, but stuck w/ you sounds like a meek future. >:O RAGE
Ok, well I am coming off from 7 years. 15yo - 22yo. one thing is for sure, going for some 15yo is rebound. Younger, easier, less likely to pwn you. You may not see it as that, but that is the case most likely. You went from a girl who hurt you, to a girl you see as passive. Trust me, this 15yo..will most likely grow & learn to hurt you just the same.Whatever mental issues derive from having an abusive ex and feeling like you wasted 2 years of your life being brought down.