Its not that I didnt care. I was horrified and wanted to help, but let others talk me out of it. And now I have to live with that.
We all tell ourselves what we would do in an extreme situation like this, "oh i'd kill him, id call the cops, etc..." Then the time really comes and you freeze, caught up the conflict between your morals, peer opinion, and the safety of the situation. And nothng makes you feel so low. Knowing that you, in your heart, are seeing this and you should do something, but then no one else is taking it as serious as you, and telling you to ignore it. When I heard my friend in the back laugh all I could feel is disgust.
Especially as a woman the hurt in you after failing to act is so much worse; because you are a woman, and can empathize with the victim, and know someday that could be you.
Blame me for my failings, I accept that, but dont dare imply that I didnt care or that it was a non issue to me.