Carne Seca
Well-Known Member
You know what? Two states have legalized Cannabis. Two states passed laws FOR marriage equality (voter referendums). VOTER REFERENDUMS. I cried. I have spent most of my life being ashamed and afraid. I've lost so much over the years. People that I love, friendships, family, my health. I have been screamed at, spit on, beaten, discriminated against (I once lost a job because the boss found out I was gay), hated, denigrated, ridiculed and shunned. All because I happen to love someone you don't approve of.
I endured the Reagan regime that spent years during his administration without mentioning AIDS once. Not once. People died. There are empty holes in my life where love and laughter used to reside. Beautiful people with beautiful lives wiped out. Dying in silence because of the stigma attached to AIDS by religious conservatives. I have watched the conservative pogroms against LGBT's for decades. Fucking DECADES. I've had to watch politicians and religious leaders talk about how evil I and my kind are and how were are destroying the nation, corrupting the children, causing natural disasters and holocausts. Yes, they are even saying we planned and orchestrated the Holocaust. Despite the fact that Gays were rounded up with the Jews and put in concentration camps. Instead of a yellow star of David they were made to wear a pink triangle. How many people know this? Not many. We have our own history and NOBODY cares to know it.
Gay Panic? Seriously? You could get away with murder if you used a gay panic defense. The defense that gay people deserved what they got. This was before hate crime legislation. Being a gay man in America was a living hell. I have suffered neurological damage from a bashing. One of three. I lost my partner to hate. His murder was never solved. This has been my life. One so twisted and self-hate filled that I actually spent four years in a reparative therapy program that nearly killed me. I was so desperate to be straight. DOMA? ENDA? Proposition 8 (a cruel bit of legislation filled with lies that took away marriage rights already in place).
For the first time in my life I feel like there is hope. There's finally a light at the end of the tunnel.
Come talk to me when you have gone through a fraction of what I and many like me have had to endure. Keep sitting at that desk with your computer and comfortable chair with your soda in one hand and a Twinkie in the other and tell me how bad you have it. So pardon me when I say with complete conviction, Fuck you and the horse you rode in on, FilthyFetch.
