Pookiedough
Well-Known Member
Seriously you only get one go at this, don't shit it up moping around picking out all the things that bring you displeasure if you do it just wastes time you wont get back.
I hate my life. Im 20 years old, white male from Pennsylvania. I go to a good college in southern california and im just sick of everything around me. Im an English major and its more of a hobby to me than a passion. My parents support me in pretty much anything i want to do, but for some reason nothing has been that rewarding. I have interests; cooking, reading, writing... but its nothing i can make a life out of. Im having a midlife crisis before i even have a life. Im just sick of all this. I even have a really cute girlfriend back in LA but she doesnt really get why im so upset with everything. I have so many goddamn opportunities but i just dont want any of them. I dont really care much for getting a ba, or getting some kush job after college. There are a lot things i want to do, but when i say them, they sound like strange fantasies to my parents.
To get my mind off things I think about ways to kill myself. But I dont think I have the balls to ever do it. I want to see the world but i dont know where to start. I constantly have these pipe dreams of just leaving this life behind and start hopping trains or something, but i dont know if i have the balls to do that either.
Im back home in pittsburgh now for the summer and things have been shitty. I dont know if i want to go back to school and its making my parents go freaking mad! Im just sleeping in and playing around on my computer. I dont know what to do. I dont really know why im posting this. Its almost 4am here and this is just a shot. Does anyone out there in this big/small world have any ideas? Please no B.S. Im getting to the end of my rope...
this is prolly a stupid idea but my email is [email protected]
Dr Pepper is the cure for paranoia.And thats not even factoring in my anxiety or episodes of psychosis and paranoia
In his state of mind, that might end up really bad. It was a guy up here in canada who was a little imbalanced, toked a bowl of salvia, claimed he saw the path of his life, and decided to end it. Citing it was no reason for him to continue living since he had already seen the outcome. Psychedelics are no good unless you're in a good state of mind.take a few big hits of salvia and that shit will clear up your mind... but seriously if you want to escape into another dimension just do it
In his state of mind, that might end up really bad. It was a guy up here in canada who was a little imbalanced, toked a bowl of salvia, claimed he saw the path of his life, and decided to end it. Citing it was no reason for him to continue living since he had already seen the outcome. Psychedelics are no good unless you're in a good state of mind.
You sir, need to buck up and buy a ham. Being a man aint easy, but you haven even came across the hard parts yet. The fact that you think you have room to complain about your life shows how little understanding and compassion you have for the rest fo the world. I tutro these motherfuckin african guys, who walked a thousand miles and saw thier friends killed by wild animals for the chance at life, and you think you have some room or right to whine about your existence.I hate my life. Im 20 years old, white male from Pennsylvania. I go to a good college in southern california and im just sick of everything around me. Im an English major and its more of a hobby to me than a passion. My parents support me in pretty much anything i want to do, but for some reason nothing has been that rewarding. I have interests; cooking, reading, writing... but its nothing i can make a life out of. Im having a midlife crisis before i even have a life. Im just sick of all this. I even have a really cute girlfriend back in LA but she doesnt really get why im so upset with everything. I have so many goddamn opportunities but i just dont want any of them. I dont really care much for getting a ba, or getting some kush job after college. There are a lot things i want to do, but when i say them, they sound like strange fantasies to my parents.
To get my mind off things I think about ways to kill myself. But I dont think I have the balls to ever do it. I want to see the world but i dont know where to start. I constantly have these pipe dreams of just leaving this life behind and start hopping trains or something, but i dont know if i have the balls to do that either.
Im back home in pittsburgh now for the summer and things have been shitty. I dont know if i want to go back to school and its making my parents go freaking mad! Im just sleeping in and playing around on my computer. I dont know what to do. I dont really know why im posting this. Its almost 4am here and this is just a shot. Does anyone out there in this big/small world have any ideas? Please no B.S. Im getting to the end of my rope...
this is prolly a stupid idea but my email is [email protected]