I've never seen you make said ass of yourself, nor have I borne the brunt of any of your alcohol fueled aggression, so I really don't have a dog in this fight. I really couldn't throw stones even if I had, because I drank alcoholically for literally a couple decades. Instant asshole...Just add liquor! I'm glad you decided to do something about it at this point rather than wait. Alcohol is one mean bitch to quit. I DO know that had it not been for pot, I'd either still be drinking today, or dead.
I wish you the best. Even if you don't drop the shit right away, the first hurdle has been eliminated, you acknowledge the problem. Took me a bit to completely get rid of alcohol, but I feel SO much better for it (Even after the strokes) Alcohol is NOT your friend, in fact it will probably take all your friends away.
I'm with Shadowweed, If ya just need to talk or vent, I TRY to keep my PM box open so feel free.
AS for apologies, either folks will accept yours or they don't. (C'mon folks...a little tolerance and compassion?) Some fences can't be mended overnite. Move on, keep trying. I quit drinking some 6 yrs ago (?approx) and am STILL eating crow to this day. (BTW, Crow aint half bad with a bit of Natures Seasoning! LOL)