Look, man.. I don't have the time to go over this with you, please don't take offense, it's just the way it is.. I've done it dozens of times with people, at this point I just don't care anymore.. I leave it up to you to hold yourself responsible to figure this stuff out.. It's just too time consuming.
I would suggest you utilize the internet, like I said before, ask big questions, if we don't already know the answers, find out how close to the answer we do know and read about that. Read the biographies of the scientists who discover these things, read about the applications their discoveries eventually led to.
All of this is so much more than the unexplainable magic of some supreme being being in charge.. I wish people like you could just see that.. Existence doesn't have to be as bad as people make it out to be, we don't need to be saved because there is nothing be saved from. We're simply a consequence of circumstances that happens to be aware of its own existence. I wish you could see that you hold onto and perpetuate a system of rule centuries old originally designed to keep lower classes of people in line and under monarch rule. That millions of people have been put to death in the name of the very same omnipotent being the Abrahamic religions worship. That if there were such a being, simple logic wouldn't defeat the idea of it. That you can be so much more than a drone who believes in ancient misguided disconnected practices...
