2 MES- Sometmes Meek,Sometimes Menacing

[steveK]

I have been thinking about my extreme mood fluctuations lately ,and how at times I can feel so disinterested in life due to things like extreme pain, fatigue ,loneliness etc, to the point where I feel completely withdrawn. At other times ,I just let my resentments build and build until one day I just lose it ,and I have no doubt been very intimidating to some people over the years. Anyhow I decided to write down the words meek and menacing as I did in the post below for some reason.


If you look at the s at the end of the 2mes you will notice that you can spell sane going down then back . Also notice is mena is an anagram for mean and amen as well. I thought this might be something others will find quite interesting as well, especially since it was inspired after smoking some high grade bud.

 

[steveK]

2mes
menacing
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[cannawizard]

Try meditating And smoke some bowls before you start, thank me later~

 

[steveK]

thanks, I am actually doing quite a bit better really, its been a while since Ive really lost it on somebody,but still I do let my anger get the better of me somedays, and feelings of being overwhelmed with things as well. I like to stay busy personally, and Im working on a couple inventions that I am hoping will be very popular soon, and this will certainly help boost my confidence ,and overall stability if I do have some serious success as I am kind of counting on now.

 

[curious2garden]

I too had to give up Sativa's.

 

[lahadaextranjera]

Don't use smoking to create a numbness which stops your ability to deal with things. If that's what you might be doing.

 

[steveK]

Don't use smoking to create a numbness which stops your ability to deal with things. If that's what you might be doing.

I don't think so, but I may be using it to help deal with my physical pain. I quit alcohol a couple years ago ,so one thing at a time anyhow. I also quit oxycontin/ opiates as well about a year ago ,so I know Im heading in the right direction. My extremes really aren't as exreme as they were ,but I sure still think about those days. I think it helps to have some really bad remember whens so you know how to gauge any progression / regression you may be making in your life.

 

[steveK]

I probably should have called that little word jumble thing the three mes, since there is the sane part as well which is also in there. Its just that its not so apparent somedays,and I have to look a bit harder to see it .