Sunni, when your sister has cancer, your husband gets a terminal illness and gets told he has less than 6 months to live and your daughter ends up on life support after some asshole causes a distasterous auto accident in which your son AND son in law end up in coffins people turn to what they never thought they would. I didnt see myself becoming a reefer grower. I also didnt expect what I have read on this site. I came here to learn as fast and as much as possible. Not to be on the receiving end of non caring childish attitudes. And I sure as hell am not a stagnant person. My photospread in a prominent adult magazine will tesify to that. When life throws hardship and you feel desparate, there is no time for games. A few messages have pointed me in the directions I need to go so TRUST ME, I havent gone down in a ball of flames. For a brief moment in time I felt pissed off and had the balls to say how I felt. If you loved someone you would probably get it. But I doubt it.