Im not really concerned about getting caught I just think she is lookin for something to bitch about. The thing that stops me from getting high is the fact that you cant get hired anywhere without pissing clean. I know there is ways around that but I don't think its worth the hassle. Plus I really am enjoying life sober ive been fucked up my whole life this is quite a change for me to see things clearly. I believe when its time for me to retire or im financially set then I might begin again. I just wondered if anyone else who grows doesn't smoke?
Well I'll confess:
I am a recovering Opiate addict. I smoked for years with no problem but when I got into opiates ( no I didnt graduate to opiates, surgery started it) I quit because I just loved the opiates more. It was a 12 year run until I finally went and got help. Fast forward through a lot of shit and now it's 9 months drug free. In order to get the treatment I got covered by my insurance, I had to agree to be tested monthly as part of a Suboxene treatment program. So... I havent been able to smoke anything. If I test positive I'm out of the program and they're paying for my maintenance meds that would otherwise cost me around $900 a month. So I have that incentive to stay clean.
On top of that weed started to give me a weird panic attack kind of feeling so I was ready to give it up anyway.
However, I dont know how it happened, well...I know why it happened, the Mrs still smokes and thats all she does. I got tired of dealing with these little street rats for smoke so I decided to take up growing as a hobby. I had no idea how great this would turn out for me. I dont turn out a lot of yield, but the quality of my own stuff is better by far than anything I ever bought on the street.
Someday, I dont know when, I'll go back to trying to smoke again. Theres a time and place for everything and right now just isn't the time. So, the Mrs smokes all by herself and it doesnt even tempt me. Turns out I ended up loving raising it myself far more than I thought I would. I'm having a blast despite the occasional headaches any grower has watching a seedling turn into a beautiful frost covered lady. This is my 5th run now and I learn a little more with each run.
So, there it is...Happy Growing and be thankful for something.
Oh and PS, If you plan on living on this planet past another 6 months or so, don't EVER let yourself get trapped by the opiate monster. In my area it ( in heroin form mainly) is all the rage these days and while I never did heroin, starting out with a few Percocets here and there can turn you into an insatiable monster before you ever knew what hit. Stay away from opiates.