Hey Filthy can you provide a link to you DIY buckets, I'm especially interested in the control bucket design. I don't know what to say, hang in there, I'm at a loss for words when it comes to terrible situations and what can I a perfect stranger say that probably hasn't been said already by loved ones. I guess it makes me feel better, so, yeah, oh and you put it out there, so, it's whatever. Have you ever considered or done any research on eating leaf? Try eating an ounce or 2 for a couple of months, couldn't hurt. Could be bullshit but I personally know 2 people that I as well as them believe that it has helped them, they were both hit with Alzheimer's in their 50's. No psychoactive effects either. Anyways can I get a link to our DIY stuff. Thanks.