Any advice for a lost soul?

Get a grip ffs.

Eugenios said:

Hello good people. I've been feeling lost during the last 4-5 years with no purpose. How can I find my purpose? I'm currently 23 and work 6-7 months for summer season. I meet a lot of new people from all over the world but every winter it is just me and my thoughts. I have SO MUCH TIME but I waste it doing nothing. I need to do something. I don't have much time. I don't know, there's something weird with me. It's like I'm North pole and South Pole, fire and water, negative and positive. 6 months I can have fun and speak with 50new people per day, other 6 months I only talk to myself. I workout very hard and eat healthy but sometimes something happens to me and devour anything on sight and stop working out. I love growing weed but when I smoke weed, I turn even more lazy and useless so I don't like smoking weed. A girl once told me that Geminis tend to be like that. It's like I have 2 personalities. Have you ever felt lost? Any advice would be great and thank you for your time. I'm really grateful for that.

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IME, repeating this process has been a great help for [my] depression and antisocial tendencies:

Grow some weed. - Enjoy gardening and providing smoke for you & yours.
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Fill a small mason jar with dried / cured flower - an amount that makes you smile.
Bring the mason jar full of weed that you grew to the nearest toker you know of.
- maybe a gram or two of kief / hash from your harvest
- or a stick of canna-butter / edibles that you made.
Smoke a few bowls of the weed that you grew with them.
Leave the mason jar full of weed with them.
When you get home, think about
- the look on the face of the person you gave your weed to when they tasted your weed,
- and when you told them you were leaving the jar for them to have.
- enjoy that memory.

Find a new friend / neighbor to give a jar to.
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Here's another:

Share your growing experience with others - maybe the same toker as above.
Give your neighbor a few seeds and help them grow them through flowering - maybe some gear.
Enjoy the look on that person's face,
-when they bring a mason jar full of their weed to you.
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Bonus:
Keep a few cured branches whole and make a bouquet in a vase - my Wife did it last harvest and it looked pretty cool on the coffee table - till I got to them with the Fiskars...

You were brought to earth because mommy and daddy did the dirty. Do stuff you enjoy.

Eugenios said:

A hobby is not really going to help me find purpose. A hobby is just an easy release of dopamine. I told you, I workout very hard, I grow, I jog, I read books and info online. Those are all hobbies. Dopamine. I need to find out why I was brought on this earth.

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To make babies and die.or you can beleve in an imaginarie creature made you for a plan after you die.
You got seasonal depression because in the winter you have too much time and dont use it.hobby or a harder job will remove your problems.start drawing or make a side hussle

Not for you but by the time I was your age I had been married 6 years and had two Sons.

Working a Job making good money. Lasted 11 years. Seemed like a long time. Married another woman Traveled,had many other Jobs.

Found your time in this world is very short. Yes I found Jesus when I was 45. 68 now, got Cancer, lost use of one Arm and Leg,haven't had sex for many years.

I've came to realize things could be worse but it's been a fun run by doing what I wanted.