Thank you so much for all of your replies. I actually joined this "forum" last year, but because I am not the most computer literate person in the world, I was unable to navigate through the system; I still am not quite sure. When I first joined, I was reprimanded for not following proper procedure. There really isn't anyone I can talk to about my mental health issues. Everyone wants to just lock me up in the state's mental health nuthouse. I have more bad days than good. Between the combination of my complicated mental health diagnosis and my chronic pain, I spend way too much time curling up underneath the blankets, trying my best not to move because I hurt so F---ing bad. I am very leary about most mental health meds, particularly in the last year. At this point, I am taking nothing except my pain pills , my Valium (on very infrequent occassions) and Lunesta to go to sleep. However, above and beyond all of that, marijuana is my best "medication." Another advantage for being legal for med mj is, a pain med manager can cut me off of my pain meds if I come up dirty for a mj UA, but because I am legal, nobody can deny me anything. I spent a lot of time researching what and how I should make my plea for med mj. I developed a convincing enough case that, logically, they couldn't turn me down. I did lose my pain management doctor, but now my family doctor provides me with my pain pills. I get 42 Vicodan 10's, once a week. I get 60 Marinol (synthetic THC) once a month. Anyone that wants any more advice about how to get legal is more than welcome to contact me. I also have a service dog that goes everywhere with me. I basically rewrote the rules concerning service dogs in the state of Alaska and hopefully, by the time I am done, I will do the same for weed. Unfortunately, I worked on comercial fishing boats for 27 years (Deadliest Catch!!!), so I tend to utilize a lot of swear words; something they are able to throw back at me to deny me services. I am now at the beginning of a lawsuit for being discriminated against, not only about my dog, but also for being discriminated against about my med mj. Just because I say the word FUCK is no reason and totally out of hand to deny me services. Luckily, I am in a position that I completely have the Americans with Disabilities Act behind me 100%. Please take care and if anybody has any suggestions about how I can pursue my complaints in a more effective manner, I am all about hearing about it. LOL Bearsbuds
anyone use mm for metal illness, psychotic symptoms,mood disorder
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If anything, I try to avoid my psych meds. The older I get (55), the more I realize that psych meds are just a trap to keep me more in their control. The psych med providers say that mj is addictive, well, what about my psych meds? They tell me that I can't just stop taking my psych meds, I must "taper" down or suffer dire consequences. Personally, I would much rather stop taking my pain meds than suffer the meltdown from my psych meds. Marijuana is truly the only safe medication I take. And, how dare they take away what little bit of happiness that MJ provides. The psych med providers seem to have one goal only--to keep me as miserable as possible. They can't stand it that I am as high functioning as I am. LOL Bearsbuds
ghengiskhan
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I use it for anxiety and depression. Depression is helped a lot, but depending on the strain and the situation I'm in (comfertable/uncomfertable) it can do nothing or possibly increase my anxiety.
metsystem
Active Member
I cant say enough about they horror which is psych meds. Forget the meltdowns from not taking them you should see some of the side effects of taking them. I gained 40 pounds in a week from seroquell. so they switched me to geodon. Geodone landed me in the ER for SEVERE mussle spasms... thats an understatement. i would try to move my neck and my arm would raise, not to mention my head turned left and continued to do so for over an hour, i was in excruciating pain they gave me cogentin and benadryl until it wore off. my doctor told me not to quit taking the meds cause the effects. so i had nearly two other identical incidents which led to me loosing my job. Long story short i'd like to get a MM card for these symptoms but dont know how.
....Any one want any seroquell??
jk
....Any one want any seroquell??
jk
Lacy
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yes it can increase my anxiety in a huge way if it is not suitable for me.
But I am very happy today as I got approved for my mm card.
I can totally relate to what you are saying.
But I am very happy today as I got approved for my mm card.
I can totally relate to what you are saying.
Lacy
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Hey I wondered the same thing. I saw that you joined December 2006 which is quite a while ago.
Gosh . Props to you buddy for writing all of this out and being so honest.
Mental disorders are a very difficult thing to talk about because there is so much misunderstanding about them and because many criminals and homeless people have them that many people fear the very thoguth itself.
The thing with a physical disorder is that they can be seen and understood by most of us. Even the autistic child gets some understanding but people with mental disorders are often shamed and /or discriminated against.
I'm quite sure most of us with these disorders were not 'want' to have them but just find the best way to live with their condition.
I can relate to a lot of what you are saying. Learning the computer was a real break for me because I fear people so much that I often don't even go out of the house. I am much better now than I was a few years back.
Its a wonderful thing that you found something that you truly love.
Deadliest catch sounds familiar. Perhaps I have been watching too may fishing shows with my hubby but he would love to do something like you are doing right now.
I have to say that you really chose a good lifestyle for yourself considering your illnesses and all.
A lawsuite for swearing.
LOL! The things people will sue for. Silly!
Take care. Most inspiring read. thgansk for sharing.
Gosh . Props to you buddy for writing all of this out and being so honest.
Mental disorders are a very difficult thing to talk about because there is so much misunderstanding about them and because many criminals and homeless people have them that many people fear the very thoguth itself.
The thing with a physical disorder is that they can be seen and understood by most of us. Even the autistic child gets some understanding but people with mental disorders are often shamed and /or discriminated against.
I'm quite sure most of us with these disorders were not 'want' to have them but just find the best way to live with their condition.
I can relate to a lot of what you are saying. Learning the computer was a real break for me because I fear people so much that I often don't even go out of the house. I am much better now than I was a few years back.
Its a wonderful thing that you found something that you truly love.
Deadliest catch sounds familiar. Perhaps I have been watching too may fishing shows with my hubby but he would love to do something like you are doing right now.
I have to say that you really chose a good lifestyle for yourself considering your illnesses and all.
A lawsuite for swearing.
LOL! The things people will sue for. Silly!Take care. Most inspiring read. thgansk for sharing.
Stoney McFried
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It's the only thing that shuts all the little voices up.
Stoney McFried
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More like echoes than true voices...my mind is always going....never shuts up.
Lacy
New Member
OHHHH well yeah. I know exactly what you mean. Mine is like that too. I supposed most people are like that though but not as much racing of thoughts.
The racing thoughts gets me very anxious at times.
but I would rather have anxious than depressed. I have been in some depressions where I would rather have been dead.
The racing thoughts gets me very anxious at times.
but I would rather have anxious than depressed. I have been in some depressions where I would rather have been dead.
Stoney McFried
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The depression can be horrifying, I know...they used to called it melancholia...sounded so much more romantic.
OHHHH well yeah. I know exactly what you mean. Mine is like that too. I supposed most people are like that though but not as much racing of thoughts.
The racing thoughts gets me very anxious at times.
but I would rather have anxious than depressed. I have been in some depressions where I would rather have been dead.
Lacy
New Member
LMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG gurl. That was priceless.
I would rep you for that but am all out of rep for tonight
I'll rep tomorrow though.
Too funny. yes it does sound romantic and I do like it much better.
I am gonna remember that one for sure.
OMG gurl. That was priceless.
I would rep you for that but am all out of rep for tonight
I'll rep tomorrow though.
Too funny. yes it does sound romantic and I do like it much better.
I am gonna remember that one for sure.
Stoney McFried
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I always hear a guys voice in my head. Very droll, usually informing me of stuff thats not right. I call him Abe.It's probably just me.It's the voice that says inappropriate stuff that makes ya bust out laughing at bad times. First time I really noticed it, I was completely sober, sitting on the toilet. This voice says, "Billybob's elastic whorehouse." I of course began laughing like a nut. I only hear it once in a great while and it says shit like that...otherwise, its always a million thoughts in there, some songs always playing...ehhh...let's not go any further and put my crazy on display!
Lacy
New Member
OMG. I have that voice but thats my own voice coming out wif stuff before I even have a chance to digest it.
OMG gurl. I can so relate to that.
Lets not put your crazy on display. No
Damn. I wish I could stop mione from being on display but it is just so much a part of me that to reject that part of myself would be to totally reject me.
I've been doing that for most of my entire life and don't wanna do that now.
I figure I might as well roll with the craziness than fight it.
I jmean...why not. What other choice do we have ?
Right ?
I always hear a guys voice in my head. Very droll, usually informing me of stuff thats not right. I call him Abe.It's probably just me.It's the voice that says inappropriate stuff that makes ya bust out laughing at bad times. First time I really noticed it, I was completely sober, sitting on the toilet. This voice says, "Billybob's elastic whorehouse." I of course began laughing like a nut. I only hear it once in a great while and it says shit like that...otherwise, its always a million thoughts in there, some songs always playing...ehhh...let's not go any further and put my crazy on display!
Stoney McFried
Well-Known Member
I've managed to keep it under wraps for this long...try...to...hold...a....little...longer...ugh!But do you ever get urges to do stuff? Like I went out one day and smeared my face with mud and ran around like that all day in the house...one day my old man came in to me sporting full gene simmons kiss makeup...sometimes I draw dicks on my forehead.......no wait..scratch that last one!
OMG gurl. I can so relate to that.
Lets not put your crazy on display. No
Damn. I wish I could stop mione from being on display but it is just so much a part of me that to reject that part of myself would be to totally reject me.
I've been doing that for most of my entire life and don't wanna do that now.
I figure I might as well roll with the craziness than fight it.
I jmean...why not. What other choice do we have ?
Right ?
Lacy
New Member
OMG draw dicks on my forehead. UMM...let me think for a minute.
NO!
I do some pretty crazy assed shit though at times.
At times I wanna do the craziest things in the middle of the night or call up a friend and literally laugh for so many hours that my stomach is aching the next day.
I'm not a shopper per say but once in a while I will go out and get things that don't make any sense.
I start a million projects and once and rarely finish any of them.
I will have conversations and forget where I was because I bounce back and forth so often that I lose the train of thought.
But the sexuality peaks are totally freaky for me that is
I'm not sure whether this is a good thing or not but it works for me.
NO!I do some pretty crazy assed shit though at times.
At times I wanna do the craziest things in the middle of the night or call up a friend and literally laugh for so many hours that my stomach is aching the next day.
I'm not a shopper per say but once in a while I will go out and get things that don't make any sense.
I start a million projects and once and rarely finish any of them.
I will have conversations and forget where I was because I bounce back and forth so often that I lose the train of thought.
But the sexuality peaks are totally freaky for me that is
I'm not sure whether this is a good thing or not but it works for me.
Stoney McFried
Well-Known Member
Sex has never been all that great for me...I love to give head...but sex...meh...its ok sometimes. Now I did buy this purple jackrabbit....and that's a pretty good thing...but again only in small doses.
OMG draw dicks on my forehead. UMM...let me think for a minute.
I do some pretty crazy assed shit though at times.
At times I wanna do the craziest things in the middle of the night or call up a friend and literally laugh for so many hours that my stomach is aching the next day.
I'm not a shopper per say but once in a while I will go out and get things that don't make any sense.
I start a million projects and once and rarely finish any of them.
I will have conversations and forget where I was because I bounce back and forth so often that I lose the train of thought.
But the sexuality peaks are totally freaky for me that is
I'm not sure whether this is a good thing or not but it works for me.